guess i haven been telling others abt my new blog!

http://repsaj88.livejournal.com/

O well to say there are sometimes in bmt tt i'm quite unhappy about. somehow i think i'm closing my world up again. maybe i need a longer than normal time to adapt to the life i have now. till now i'm still not very open to my campmates yet. not their prob but mine...

mentally stressed. I jus felt so sian lo. seriously now i think i better rest more before more shit comes!! call me out when u have time ba!

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Busy days are coming

not tt i need $$ but jus to kill time and kill myself. O man. sometimes to think of it it is a bit stupid.

3 yrs yupz and i still dunnoe how some ppl think. Sometimes i jus wanna getaway from so many things tt i better jus keep myself busy and work ur ass off.

money makes the world go round. ya but not for me i guess. so wad if u'r rich? u've no true frens? tt makes is no different from being poor with gd frens. rite? u noe wad i'm getting on?

u'll hae to learn to classfy ppl. hu and where they stand. doesn't mean u recommend me something tt i can jus get from anywhere i have to give u back something hugh? doctors are everywhere. jus tt i chose urs wad. i was recommended 4 to 5 doctors? so meaning i have to give everyone sth? wad's tt barking to give u back or barking to call u give ppl back sth? A true fren ask for no return. Tts a statement i wanna say.

sometimes ppl can say i dun care abt $$ yes it is true but not tt i'm freaking rich or wad. i'm poor too but i'm willing to set aside $$ to "give others". $$ can never buy u happiness. and if money is so impt to u so be it. if returning a gift for a favour tts so small it is not called not worth. but it jus shows how materlistic one can get.

life's not abt equations of in = out. give = return.

my busy days are here. and i need to plan my time really well. a time saved is a time gained. i need jus frens i can pour my hearts out. frens i'm comfortable with. frens tt will share everything with. and not interfere unless otherwise. frens hu keep others' secrets from another.

My life's not tt simple afterall. my life's not tt native already. u learnt something u learn it well. u do something u do with ur most. tts all i can say. so live life like how life should be lived.

Bookings in advance needed if u'r getting me out or i'm getting u out. most prob is i'll be getting ppl out y coz everyone thinks i'm always a busy man in fact not. a person hu has lots of frens. whom i'm not. a person with lots of life whom i'm also not.

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My List of Wanna-get

actually i got a lot of things i wanna get. but then hor. no cash!! :( so sad can.

i wanna get Wii so i can kill time yet move around a bit. at least better than sitting down in front of the computer to look at the screen. so stationary. a bit cannot stand. i rather go sleep.

then was thinking of psp and DS then find games to play lor. army can kill time also. summore portable of coz nice la go out also ok. lolx. looking at my bag can la still can contain one more. lolx.

wanna find a no cam phone too. hard to find la me again so picky. haiz. so need to see how lor.

Its raining so heavily now!! argh!!!

those are tech stuff.

i wanna get one Sauvignon Blanc (hope i got the spelling correct) of coz a nice one la to drink! haha. but not drink so soon. =X

then i cannot eat chocolates and peanuts. coz my face is really bad now. haiz. lets trust the facial foam and of coz i do take care too.

i wanna get a bag. maybe a crumpler. coz ya my bag seems to be getting smaller and smaller. or maybe is i carrying too many things when i'm out? but still thinking. i wanna get a nylon de rather than cotton. coz my shirt seems to be getting abrasions. lolx.

clothes! i wanna get more and more clothes! too little already and also wither too long or too big? or not suited to my dressing style le. haiz. change change change the wardrobe!!!

yes jeans my jeans seem to be going apart physically i think. so i better find new jeans to buy. but so ex! ar~~~~

o yes a jacket too. maybe hoodie ba. lolx. again need to find. =S sometimes jus hate finding. but picky me no choice. ok so it is not called jacket le la..

shoes! i wanna change shoes. so sick of the shoe tt i'm wearing already. but then again. dunnoe leh maybe something like canvas material?

o yes most imptly i wanna get accessories! so girl but guys have accessories to buy too! first maybe cuff links already saw le but so ex. haiz. no choice but then again i also dun have a shirt to go with the cuff link so ya a shirt for it too.

then watch. i wanna get another watch. ya another. so i better aim properly. currently still dun have one tt really interest me leh. the wanna be dressing style too.

necklace. lolx. yup thinking of getting one coz need one tt suits me de. so diff to find. haiz. ok maybe is i'm too picky yet again. but tt time saw le nv buy now gone!! argh sian.

ring? nah nop rings for now. maybe till i find my other half bah. maybe. but the ring i have now is still for myself but seldom wear le. coz dunnoe leh. it jus look weird sometimes.

belt!! i wanna get another one more. and again so diff to find u noe me de la. haiz.

i wanna fast get my driving lis maybe also bike? and speed boat? hmm or even plane. wahhaa. if i can tt is. =S

wanna get a piano too. of coz learn la.

maybe i also wanna create a small bar in my room wahaha.. then again think too much. yawn~!

O ya i wan disco lights wahha and insulate my room door so wahaha. can on music loud loud personal clubbing? ok think too far.

i wanna get diving lis too!!! so i can go out diving. so diving must come with speed boat? lolx

i wanna get this grooming book coz inside got the colour schemes for every season. and yupz~! must follow season de lor. so sian...

ok la i wanna try wakeboarding, canoeing, sky diving, bungee jumping. dunnoe wad else le la forgot. sian.

then i wanna go to these places: cafe del ma, zouk, attica, living room?, lots more places la. haiz. i wan a getaway! then i can buy and buy lots and lots of things!!! perfect get away? haven find leh but NYC Tokyo Hong Kong Maldives Paris Milan finland. lolx.

ok after writing so so so much. bottom line is all the above not possible to get so forget it. lolx.

the world means a lot to u but u may mean a world to somebody. =)

O ya i need to get a new specs sian. still finding a frame (for NS) and i need to get contacts too! lolx. supply short.

Most impt thing is invest ur $$ to beat inflation. lolx. but invest wisely.

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Work!

YTD was not a very gd day i think. maybe i was a bit too sensitive.

Morning also wake up with a blast! suppose happy but upon hearing something totally foul my mood! so screaming and shoutings were heard throughout the morning. put on a blackface in the afternoon. Even eating lunch too. ARGH!

but was better when i met my frens at 4 for kboxsuppose to meet at 2 ya. its a gd reason ok. coz i need to make sure my mum's alrite. so...

Kbox as usual dun really sing voice range not there la no choice!!!

work was like tt lor. started out not gd coz i was still feeling very sensitive abt some issue. then was alrite after the crowd really came but some bitch! spoil ppl's day!!! argh! ended real late.

guess everyone's aslp by the time i slp. =X coz no one online. haiz. bored. saw lots of things to buy. but how to buy clothes. haiz again.

tdy dunnoe how. =S

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Pills

Guess wad i have got lots of pills to eat!

Supplement pill: glucosamine
Pills for my back: some muscle relieve and pain killers
Pills for face
and last one pills from a chinese doc!
Plus gotta eat liquid dietary fibre.

morning look at the amount of pills to eat! OMG!!! after a gd breakfast u have to drink so much water to swallow the pills with? = SUPER full breakfast!!

O well Happy yet sad. Fun yet not fun weekend. sat was out sun was home the whole day.

lets jus say i'm not doing gd somehow yet doing gd somehow?

M i also tt crazy kid in ur eyes? -.-

So sad weekends gone again. . .

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Results

Lets not talk abt results ok.

Well this is the first day ever i come home so many times when i travel out quite far already. :X

first was morning went to see a doc. then after tt ate breakfast and came home. 2nd was out again to town with fren then came home. last time out was to work.

and now home.

I'm worried for my uni admission. haiz. may it be good.

Anyway, it was a damn happy time working tdy!!!! felt so gd working la. i think i'll work more. lolx. see others happy u also will happy de lor. and i'm always surrounded by them as in i work where? lolx.

I hope some ppl's results are ok. there's no such thing called mission failed!! maybe the main objective u fail but there are other side objective tt u accomplished or even excel in it.

I'm still trying to hold on but can hold no longer i guess.

I'm enjoying this freedom! YEAH! But with no money. so sad. =(

There is such thing called so near yet so far. =(

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It's a curse

Family curse maybe??

Ya so maybe i guess best is till not to ..... lolx.

tml's gonna be the judgement day. May i be blessed with gd results. :X or rather something nice.

i need to relax more. i wan a gd complexion. and an 8 to 5 job! =D tts all i need now.

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