I'm SO FREAKING PISSED!!!!

WHEN I SAW IT I WAS LIKE OMG... IS TT CALLED A HAIR CUT??? IT IS A HAIR CUT ALRITE!!!!

tt ass mum... still say it is nice... i think my ass looks nicer!!! i was forced to have this stupid hair cut... and the sideburn tt i leave for like almost a year?? or more i dun remember... WAS GONE!!! the hair looks like shit totally.. ok i think shit looks nicer than this hair alrite!!!

the world's no.1 ugliest hair cut ever in my life!!! guess wad... tml sch reopen.. and how m i going to show others my hair??? i really wonder... jus so so pissed off by my mum... and where i had tt hair cut.. 10 dollar shop!!! ARGH!!! her explaination u dun need such an expensive hair cut!!! i tell u... it is this tt make me totally pissed!!! imagine i go to sch tml with this stupid hair style which now i can't even do anything abt it... there is no hair salon tt will cut my hair at this time... there is like no way to correct this hair style!!!

totally no way... wad's more i have to bathe later... and whihc means i'll c the mirror.. and which means i'll c tt totally disguesting hair style of mine!!!!!!! argh!!! i think i would rather pay another 20 30 bucks more for a better hair cut man.... this is totally freakingly getting out of hand!!!!

wad would others think man... when they look at my hair style... *faint* totally pissed la... and becoz of this stupid mum and the dad hu fork out the $$$ i had this stupid hair cut by this stupid lady... hu cut my hair into this stupid shape!!! i stupidly can't believe it... and how m i suppose to make my hair up??? the sides are totally ugly.. and ya i remember this person say we'll make sure he look different in the SHOP!!!!!!!!!! ya i called it shop!!! not a salon!!! and i think it was totally true... so different.. and the word to summarize everything is UGLY!!!!! i think there is nothing tt i can do i tell u... argh!!! should i go for a hair cut again??

should i skip sch for the hair cut or skip band??? i'm so totally freaking pissed.... should i wear a cap?? if i wear a cap wad clothes should i wear??? i dun think i have any cloths tt fit the style of wearing a cap!!! argh...

can anyone help me!!!! even my dad also think indirectly think tt my hair is ugly!!!! after the cut then he say u should have said earlier tt u wanna go where where cut ur hair.. ARGH!!!! i'mm never step into another of tt 10 $$$ hair cut SHOP!!! never... even if i have to beg i'll beg till i get enough $$ for a hair cut at a proper salon!!!! i think the barber can do a better job man...

after all tt... wad m i going to do abt my hair??? tml is halloween... and and... argh!!! this stupid hair... argh!!! how to go to sch u tell me... even if i'm in ite this hair is totally out cast... argh!!! @#$R%&*() can't believe this happened to me... 3 weeks to concert.. and this hair style... everyone will laugh!!!! i dun think my hair will grow so fast till be4 concert i have enough hair for the person to cut a nicer hair man... sososososososososoosososososososososoosososo PPPPPIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDD!!!! NO WORDS CAN DESCRIBE THIS FEELING MAN!!!!! HATE IT... NEVER HAS HATE COMEOUT OF MY MOUTH BE4 OK... AND I TELL U I HATE THIS!!!!

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BORED!!!

sat woke up and then prepare for band... thought i'll be late.. but still i'm late... lolx.. but having sectionals... it was totally boring though... haiz... jus look at the pieces... still need lots of work to play them well...

after tt went to west mall to shop... while idiot and all went to orchard... how boring rite... walk the whole mall alone... top to bottom bottom to top.. then meet up with my dad and all for dinner... at west mall...

anyway sch's starting tml.. new sem... and monday totally sux... lesson from 10 to 6... band after tt... at 7 to 9.30?? so practically i'm in sch for 12 hrs... -_-" wad a day... tml will be totally boring too... most prob...

how when sch reopen i'll not be stress up so fast... there is the band concert... coming up and i think i sold none of the tickets i have... still gotta sell them rite... long way... sch reopen then say bah...

tts all for today then... later going out i guess... and wad's worse i'm not feeling well... the stupid tingy causes me to sleep... jus be4 my lunch.... haiz.. later gotta eat it again!!! so better hope tt i'll not sleep while walking at the mall later... :X

i think i need to improve on my handwriting.. :X some idiot comment on it... which i think it is true la.. lolx.. so guys.. how to improve handwriting?? write more??? :X if not how???

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Blog BLog BLOg BLOG!!!

haha.. ok... yesterday hmm... band?? ya... tts abt all i did.. :X

had usual combine sectionals... kind of bored... but still a lot of problematic parts... i can't believe after so much work still have problems with those parts i practice like hell la.... damn... O and then was raining... went to eat at al-dunnoewad.. one big group la.. from band... lolx... it is really big i tell u... 3 long tables...

then played MRT?? black magic?? fashion in paris?? the meh meh jump over the wall... :X i only noe fashion in pasir... others i dunnoe!!! argh...

o anyway was pulled to take an unwilling picture.. :( coz i was wearing tom and jerry la... super cute big picture of tom and jerry... then sad to say.. got photo taking for the sections lor.. then alamak... wad the hell lor... stupid section mate.. !@#$%^&*().. but ok la.. lolx.. still i dun mind.. lolx...

o then dad jus came back... sadded.. which means there are restrictions again... haiz... wad's more... next week 2 public holidays.. cannot siam from hse... haiz... but ok la... spend more time with my dad.. lolx..

hmm... wad else happened?? o wed... went to aunt's place... sit there listen to auntie's tok... can't believe it la... they can tok from food to food and food again... ok from eating food to dunnoe wad health thing... (food) to recipes.. lucky thing was tt we were there for like 2 hrs most i think... o and again.. i ate and ate la... so not much of diff from the morning's jog.. :X so to say... exercise = no exercise... :X

wad's worse... jogging also listening to the songs we are playing for concert.. totally sick... :S guess nothing much i missed out over the past 2 days rite?? ya boring..

O ya.. last thing.. timetable is out... it sux totally... and i can;t believe i'm gonna c this damn teacher 3 to 4 times a week... but happy thing is tt... monday is the longest day.. when friday is super short... :X friday 12pm sch ends.. yeah!! party time... i have got like friday sat and sun lor.. wahaha... but back to monday again.. totally sian... lolx...

CONCERT'S COMING... make sure u get ur tickets ya... though i think i'll not play very well like idiot nor do i have a fan club... :S but still i think enough frens to sell all those tickets... lolx... hopefully... blog more later i guess... if i have more events to blog abt... :X

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After an Interesting Day comes an Uninteresting One

haha.. a nice contrast between 2 days...

guess i did not say this after tt time's incident... haha but tt's the past la... O i was wanting to say... i still trust all my frens though... coz trust is the more impt thing rite?? somehow i think i've talk lesser... in the holidays i think 10% or less of the waking hrs are spent on talking... :X how nice rite... my world's getting quiet.. :X i guess

ok anyway i have only one mission tml... u guys no need to noe... wahaha... then siyi will be thinking like then start asking her dear to check out something... then liting and pauling can't be bothered... linda off the chalet... kailin huiyi?? haha.. dunnoe.. lolx..

today woke up late as usual... breakfast at 12.. lunch at 4 dinner at 7... i think i'm really going side ways... shit!!! bad sign... i think i'll wake up early tml.. and go for a morning jog... lolx.... yeah... must... since it is already here...

tml's my fren's b day.. lolx... wish u happy bday first.. lolx...

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Interesting day

haha.. woke up in the morning... then o linda called me out... (*0.0*) (shy) wahaha... joking la... called me to go eat kfc.. lolx...

suppose meeting time is 1.20?? i went there at 1.30 la... lolx... as always late a bit de lor.. :X coz be4 tt i was like helping my mum to iron clothes!!! if not later she'll start saying me again... stay at home do nothing... tt's a very bad comment la.. so ya...

then ate kfc already chat lor... a bit.. then decided to go orchard... lolx.. such a surprise coz actually wanted to go the next day.. so brought forward... went to tanglin mall to buy chocolates.. lolx.. my favourite... haiz.. guess i'll grow side ways again... gotta exercise again..

on the mrt saw sy, kl and hy la... they all also go orchard... but they took a train all the way la.. while linda and i alight at redhill and took a bus to tanglin mall.. lolx.. went there.. halloween coming.. there are very cute chocolates around.. lolx.. haiz.. if singapore has the halloween trend.. i'll be the first to dress up and go trick or treat?? lolx..

after tt went to borders... but on the way ate ice cream.. it is so exp.. but at least it is nice.. lolx.. at borders... as usual la.. look at astrology.. i wan the book.. in fact 3 books tt i wan.. total is like 160 plus i guess... -_-" :X haiz.. if i have to money... i'll buy!!! argh!!!

then suppose to go to national library... but in the end we decided to go back by train and sat at macafe to drink water... before doing a bit of shopping and went to the library... coz she wanna go.. but in the end.. i was the one hu borrowed book.. :X lolx.. then we went home.. surprisingly... i did not get scolded for the chocolate i bought.. lolx...

had dinner and then went with my mum to visit the RC for my uncle's dunnoe wad la... coz my uncle is not in town... in the end... still not settled.. so not my problem... came home and ya web a bit.. ate supper... apple strudel isit spelled tt way?? anyway.. it is very nice.. simply love it... i think there is a piece left for my younger sis... till now not eaten.. i guess.. later if i'm having the urge... lolx.. it'll be gone... into the bottomless pit.. lolx... :X

o tt my day.. wad's urs?? at least i think it is more interesting then other days... but still camps and chalet is more interesting la... though i would not say linda is boring... at least we are always entertained by each other's company.. :P o ya.. linda tripped.. :X and haha... it was kind of funny.. ok cannot laugh.. next time will be my turn.. :X but really la... it was very bad of me to laugh at her.. :X

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Back from Camp

Back from the 2nd band camp!!!.... happy but sad....

can i still get to c the same ppl and have the same fun again??? there would not be another camp again... till next year!!! Y.... :X

anyway lets tok abt the happy things.. first... practice and practice... i did up quite a number of parts already... but still got a lot more to work on... :X

2nd... in the camp i learnt abt my old self... yes and i mean my old self... quiet sober... :X and of coz the way i treat my frens... thanx to liting's testimonial...

3rd... at least there is someone hu is there for me... to help me get back into my old self... tt person u guys slowly guess bah!!... :P

ok the sad things... ya still gotta work alot harder... somehow my tunning is out.. and the tone is argh!!!.. goodness...

2nd being laughed at is something bad... yeah.. but still from tt laugh u noe more things... however there are always ppl hu will jus forget abt it.. like me!!!

3rd... after so much work... still waiting for this idiot to say tt special 3 words... "u done well" (haha i noe wad u guys thinking.. :P)nvm.. i'll work more and more jus till one day tt idiot says it... :)

Oo tts the camp debrief.. lolx... my own version.. :X anyway happy la... and learnt one extra thing... dun panic or think so much of a solo.. it is jus another music phrase... but played by one person... expressive and in time... of coz the notes too.. lolx..

o anyway tok abt the camp.. lolx... first day is sectionals.. and i really did lor... a lot... need more breakthrough!!! not enough... tt B-FACTOR!!! lolx.. :X but get tired la... so rest and got a few minutes of wink... :x to stay through the nite.. lolx.. not really through la.. but still quite late and still quite active the next day.. lolx...

at nite play cards... lolx.. then learnt this new game... add numbers de.. lolx... so fun lor.. lolx... bridge... da tee... at least now getting better.. :X but still a long way lor... lolx... 2nd day had sectionals again... afternoon full band... till evening games... then at nite again.. play cards... in the dark this time...

o ya the first nite.. played uno in the dark... kanna tau pok.. sian... then the top are the big big guys lor.. OMG.. me bottom.. ar!!! my cute little fren and i fought the for the last place la... then in the end i'm the last... and i lost... so no choice.. by ur position... to stack up lor.. :X lolx.. so poor fren.. lolx..

2nd nite played cards in the dark... not uno and no tau pok la... then slept.. at 6 plus went to call my fren up lor.. coz he wanted to leave at tt time... however... call liao... he also blur blur.. then c time sleep again... haha... i also slept la... but it is half half lor.. :X like dip ur feet into the water to test the temperature like tt... awake then dip in and out.. lolx...

3rd day.. last day sad... bathe etc... band mates help me take down my bag.. thank them lots man... lolx... coz i was bathing... and they were clearing the dorm already.. :X had sectionals again.. not very productive la.. but still worked a part out... though it is still not playable sia... with the band at the rite tempo.. gotta practice more... :X then o go home... i took a taxi.. with another 3 band mates... also living in boonlay ma.. lolx... reached home early lor... lolx...

anyway took a clourgenics test... 80% true lor... kind of having a little hypertension la.. or the effects of it... i think i gotta go exercise more often liao... and also... could be not enough sleep.. :X c wad i can dream tonite... if it is something good.. :X lolx... or maybe a de javu?? lolx.. lets c la.. but i must remember.. tell myself tt.. lolx.. if not sure forget.. :X

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my dream...

early morning... of my early morning is abt 8++...

dreamt.. yes dreamt... the whole dream was very peaceful...

very and i mean very...

it is like feeling la... finish a very difficult task or izit solve some big problems.. but tt noes impt..

then walk to a very nice room... with a bed... then i wanted to sleep...

some how there is this kid i guess... but a person... keep pulling me... from behind.. dun sleep dun sleep... i jus said in a tired voice... i'm tired.. i need to sleep...

when i was on the bed... still conscious.. the "kid" cried... dun sleep... then i jus say i'm tired.... and the conscious level dropped... and i died peacefully in my sleep... :X

Now i understand wad's R.I.P.. :X at least not real life but the feeling is quite genuine...

but i check up the meaning... means.. something like mostly good.. it means a new u... from the old... simplified meaning..

full meaning:
Dreaming that you die in your dream, symbolizes inner changes, transformation, self-discovery and positive development that is happening within you or in your life. Although such a dreams may bring about feelings of fear and anxiety, it is no cause for alarm and is often considered a positive symbol. Dreams of experiencing your own death usually means that big changes are ahead for you. You are moving on to new beginnings and leaving the past behind. These changes does not necessarily imply a negative turn of events. Metaphorically, dying can be seen as an end or a termination to your old ways and habits. So, dying does not always mean a physical death, but an ending of something.

how interesting... :X but tts morning... afternoon nothing interesting.. first time watch so much variety show.. :X but still i dunnoe well abt the superstar and wad not... only some la... but they are still not a prob of mine... :X lolx..

jus munch and munch.. think i'll grow fat soon... gotta exercise... -_-" but sian... next few days... down for band camp... sure to be killed there... one way or another... guess the games i'll sure be super dirty if it is a water game... after such a big incident...

but i learnt one thing... there are superficial ppl in my world now.. :X i gotta learn to diff them... haiz... maybe i've been living in a world of good frens too much... haha..

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Self-assement... but be4 tt...

let me tell u a story... a story called the underwater superfishes...

setting: underwater... deep below... live 4 types of fishes... according to size...

there is the titians... giants normal and dwarfs...

titans are the heads of the underwater world... seldom get into the business of the other types of fishes... they only get things done...

Giants... are the ppl hu are the superfishes... (not meaning of super.. but a range)

normal... are jus really normal... normaly dunnoe wad's going on.. wad to do... jus listen and go, etc...

dwarfs... they are like titians... but they are the ppl only seen.. seldom tok or get into trouble..as in trouble-free... however they dun control the other fishes like the titians...

....

Titans: ok daily chores are done... neat and tidy... u may go...

(everyone busily getting ready to go off...)

M(normal fish) asked the same question: where u fishes wanna go today???

N,Y,C,B(normal fishes)same ans: dunnoe...

(sitting there looking like a stone resting)

Wait and wait... M asked again: wanna go eat?... same ans...

so jus follow already there is obviously something wrong rite...

---came the in some giants titans and normal fishes----

titans have nothing else to do... most left... execpt one... J...but anyway somehow B's turning his colour.. for no appearent reason...

giants say time to go... so everyone including the stupid M joined in... J was the last to leave obviously... a titan leh.. have got more task to do then others... and fish J also happily swim to the edge of the council compound witht the others...

Jus then M asked again... where we going... B2 gotta ask Giant 1 (dunnoe y they are called by numbers)

B2 wispher to B.. and the whisper continues with other fishes... obviously something's not rite.. M and J are not inculded... so not knowing anything abt tt issue... M and J happily tok to each other asking where they going?? wad they doing etc.. lolx..

-- transport came... and 2 of them... obviously travelling to different locations--

so J went up the 1st... followed by N,Y,C,B.. so M followed... goign without noeing another thing... M asked again... where they heading... all asked dunnoe... J quietly sitting at a corner of the express fisher line... no. 983

then a hidden truth (in our context... msg) came from the fiscel of some fish..

some noisy behind M... and M's getting bored... from the good-for-nothing daily chores in the council's hse... (a task done for no $$ in return... tt'd wad M's mum always say)

M then asked again... where we going... then no choice (obviously it is a lie).. B said... we are gonna have some fun... at the crystal cave... only some fishes can go... funny rite... so M noe tt crystal cave he can't go... but he gets pissed off by tt lie... though... coz he noes roughly wad's going on...

so he had his test done and very transparent as it has been seen... FUMING!!

last stop be4 the scary seaweed forest... M decided not to go... thinking everyone in the world has owe him something... (tt feeling's been there quite a while... whether matter is big to show or not)

the express liner continues into the dark forest of seaweed... with M and J engaging in meaningless conversation... but as u noe M's pissed totally.. so the conversations are short.. and J tried so hard to cheer M up... and at last M decided to alight... and take another liner to the busiest area in the small underwater world... called... USC.. lolx...

but looking at the amount of moonlight there is... he decided to go back to his coral... so he took the express liner no.25..

FUMING AS HE MAYBE... he's thinking tt all tt matters to him is nothing but himself... everything tt happened is beco of him... root of all problems and evil... however with lots of control... he kept quiet abt it.. till he is in his coral...

when he found out tt there was a family feast in the aftermoon (coz no sun rite)... angry and pissed as he seems... he threw it at himself... and his parents' were angry too... for him throwing the tamper....

thus went out to eat for breakfast... home sleep...

--- day 2--- ( o god this is getting longer than i expected... )

woke up nothing's wrong... after 5 minutes... pissed off look... (dunoe y)

use the day at the compartment of his coral figuring out wad's wrong with him...

use wad they called the wornet to find... and found tt this red floating particle is now going back against the tides... (things are not going to be ok)

then M's blaming on everyhting tt happened on this floating particle... he figured out wad's the problem... not the fish tt caused it.. though he somehow knew abt it...

lastly, he made his day... again with the help of wornet... to play fismes...

other then the unusual things that happened above... others are generally fine...

-day 3-

nite was fun and interesting... then comes morning when he went late for the chore... becoz of his mum... going out of the small underwater world to another world...

everything to him is normal... though feeling not really great... the work jus gave him headache... thus he made no sound when working... while others made so much noise..

obviously he knew wad had happened... and he was acting very normal... M was his normal self from outside... inside guess it is calm and peaceful...

Titans had a lot of toking... and ... u are free to go... o again... everyone's busy taking things... M packed up.. nice and clean gotta wait for some giants to get out of way be4 going off... then used fiscel to call M's good fren... tok chat for a long time...

in the end... M chose the shorter route coral... waiting for the express fisher line.... then some giants made so much noise and run away a little when M step forward a little... (funny scene) still on M's special fiscel chatting... when his express liner came... ended the call... lucky thing.. no one's on the other side of hte fish stop... and he's jus so thankful...

he called another so called fren... thankfully he is indeed a fren hu never fail to be one... at least M got his bubble burst out to the other one person... then he pressed a hidden truth to 2 other persons...

Hopefully this ended everyhing...

____THE END____

too long... cost me 1 hrs plus 2... -_-" if u dun get the meaning ask me.. :P if u dare...

next self-assement... 1 studies... 2 family... 3 friends... 4 myself... (if comfort is also considered it'll be) any problem tt falls into the 4 are called big problems... thus it is quite a high %age of problems eveyone face... but some i chose to ignore them...

next looking at wad i ask my very best fren today... i found out on thing... i'm kind of out of the norm.. :X interest is practically different from others... way of thinking?? wad's more... i found out tt i'm very annoying i guess... and though i seldom tok a lot in big groups... when i tok everyone remembers... coz i'm annoying... ok fine... tts all my views... anymore tag... these are the more impt issue these days... others not up yet so dun care...

next indeed mars retrograde affected a lot on me... i dunnoe y... but uranus is also in retrograde... thus u expect surprises.. lolx.. ya always surprise ppl...never fail... uranus.. lolx...

lastly... i'm ok.. i'm alrite... but to hu ever manage to finish the story... i thanx u... if this happens to u... sure u can also sense it rite... the stupidest person also noes abt it... if he is in the story... however if i were to blame anyone i'll blame myself then... cause of all problems? i guess so...

Great a good nite's rest.. problem settled... actually i think i've been sleeping perfectly alrite... tml going ICA i hope.. :X... btw... my camp's coming... guess the games will be water games again.. i'll be very wet or for tt matter dirty... lolx.. hate it though...

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WaD A DaY...

morning woke up suddenly felt so good... lolx.. but then again... when u wake up.. u dun really remember a lot of things till maybe like 5minutes?? ya so felt happy and irritated after tt 5 minutes.. :X

then i really dun understand how come jus get so so irritated though nothing irritates me... so went to look up the astrological aspect of the planets.. and found tt mars is in retro... which is kind of the root of the "problem"... ok it does not only affect me la.. but it is kind of affecting everyone.. i guess. believe it or not... one way or another... after all tt reading up.. still not feeling better so blog... tts the blog la..

then went online to search for games to play.. went to shockwave.com played this game call hyper frame... u guy should give it a try... esp the mind puzzles... lolx.. 40 of them.. and i solve all tts wad i'm so pround to say... at least tt game made me felt better?? or jus i concentrate and focus tts y?? wadever it is... thanx to tt game tt entertained me the whole day i guess.. o there is another one.. the speed puzzle.. i scored 16200... lolx... one of the highest.. :X

anyway there is more things to do than to get angry over trival stuff rite?? guess i've re-balanced myself... lets c abt tml then...

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I FoUnD ThE RoOt Of AlL PrObLeMs...

u c every 2 years and 2 mths.. mars will go into a retrograde state... which means it is either stationary or seems to ppl observing from earth tt the planet is moving back wards... if u dun understand pls search the dictionary... thanx..

and becoz of this... my world is totally unbalanced... wad the hell... it started from 1st oct... yes.. and it is around tt time when i start feeling this way... and it will last all the way till feb next year!!! it is only 1/2 a mth and i can;t stand it anymore.. how??? this is getting from bad to worse... argh!!! damn mars... wad the hell is it doing.. wad's worse retrograde in taurus... the bull!!! wth wth wth!!!!

ok to solve this problem.. i gotta change my attitude rite.. -_-" hate it this way! argh.. then wad's more... check out this webbie la.. u will noe y... esp the effects of mars retrograde in taurus... argh!!! hate it...

http://www.astrologycom.com/marsret.html

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A DaY I'M ToTaLlY NoT MySeLf

Jus dun wanna remember such a day... or lets jus say it isn't my day... 3 things made me mad... on the same day... argh!!! (to tt 3 things if u seen this dun tok abt it in front of me!)

i dun wanna tok abt it... so dun ask... anyway there is no use tell others too... they are of no help! (tts already a hint!) however if i wanna blog about it.. it'll be a super long and direct shot to almost everyone i noe.. :X on my way home smell alcohol and i actually thought of drinking till i'm totally drunk jus to forget such a day...

however if i can kill one person jus one.. and i'mm not be charged.. i'll kill myself then... to jus end off everything nicely... one slash and i'm forever gone... how glad can i be... o i die hu's i?? so i think is everyone then...

first i really wanna say abt it.. i'm totally not myself... and i think i can get back my old self.. till i came home and threw anger at the wrong person... tts when things get better...

second... i'm playing with something i hate to play with.. tts fate... more like it is play me.. wad the heck... wadever it is... i'll one fine day overwrite my fate.. argh...

dun tok to me for the next few days.. i need think to look at my world again.. argh...

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WaD A DaY... BuT M I MySeLf LaTeLy???

woke up jus on time to bathe change up and go sch to play badminton with my frens...

these days had very peaceful sleep.. lolx.. so happy but morning woke up suddenly felt so empty... also dunnoe y... haiz.. then play till my frens tired.. later fren call me go run on the track lor.. i told him 6 rounds ok he say ok.. in the end 1 round he died... -_-" left me running.. 6 rounds.. 2.4km..phew... last round and it started to rain heavily... wad the hell lor.. so continue to run... then played table tennis.. a while and change.. and went to eat.. canteen 2 close so canteen 1 lor... chat... and then home i come.. at 10pm went into malaysia with mum.. back at 11 plus near 12...

kind of thinking lately (as in the pastweek) i hasn't been myself... short tempered... started shouting at ppl... get irritated easily... seldom laugh?? -_-" wadever it is... really i hasn't been myself... wad's more i dunnoe y is it this way... :X can someone tell me i'm not myself when u c something tt u hasn't seen me do... or y not this way... create a formula for a forget-the-past potion?? how i wish... :X

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Politics... Can I be free from it???

i really wonder... coz i hate politics... it causes a lot of problems... and lots of emotional hurt... which i dun even wan it to happen.. i wanna be free from politics... free from it... argh..

but seriously u think it is possible??? it seems everywhere in the world... which is wad i hate.. can i search for a job tt is politics free?? :X

today nothing much happened.. jus woke up at like 12 plus 1.. then went to band but on the way got a new reed... tt cost me a bomb... stupid school... wan players dun supply reeds... argh.. dun tok abt it.. then band was ww sectionals.. (combined) nothing fruitful happened to me though...

ate 2 meals.. and a sneak... tts the most happening thing today.. -_-" boring... hope for a better tml..

and again.. can i be free from politics???

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Should somethings happen and somethings not???

wad a day... woke up at 6am jus to make breakfast for my sisters... -__-"

sometimes i was jus wondering if somethings should happen or should not happen... wad u think?? maybe it is called selfish.. maybe it is called jealous.. but jus... i feel tt really somethings should and should not happen... if i were a frog in a well i'll rather stay tt way... i have everything i need within my reach... i dun have complicated problems to think abt.. jus study and study... with frens around.. tts all i wan... nothing else..

but humans are jus a living creature.. as a life of it's own.. have feelings..(tts the worse part)... which i practically wish tt it dun even exist... and if so.. i'll live a life free of trouble... since ancient times... war begins becoz of the word feeling.. can i jus forgo everything and rest in peace?? for jus even a day?? haiz...

tt is something tt's not possible... if it is possible.. the world will jus stop for a day... would it?? jumping down a building and thus jumping into hell... or the netherworld... if tt could happen.. i'll never do it.. coz i dun wan to live an afterlife so miserable looking upon the mortal world and c each other fighting.. c each of my frens deal with the unpredictable fate... profound as it seems... fate is nothing but jus a complex structure... comprise of everyone and anothers' feelings.. making out a world... if the feelings jus go i'll live happily ever after...

but u think is possible?? i jus wonder... if i were to get drunk.. will i feel out of this world and make a nasty remark of every single thing in my 17 years of life... if tt day ever happened... i hope tt not a single one is beside me... listening to it...

if the world is such a beautiful place.. y dun i c the beauty but its ugly sight... pollution... stupid low eq ppl... stressful beings... argh... life is so sad... wad we c is not always nice.. but ugly.. not good but evil... not kind but cruel.. Y.. YY..

sometimesi think i begin to hate myself... argh....

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Things are trying to get back to normal...

ya things are trying to get back to normal.... trying... i'll also try then...

thanx to frens around hu care to ask... hu care to ans my questions... though they are so indirect... :X anyway gotta thanx my frens.. i guess the worst is over or has yet to come.. :X

so fate is not tt cruel after all i guess.. still let u have ur frens beside u to help u through this journey... but still i think fate is a bad guy... very evil...

bought sweets and peppermint chocolate to eat.. how nice rite.. still gotta get my favourite.. peppermint family block.. maybe stock up?? :X but think again.. i'm kind of thinking i'm growing sideways.. -_-" haiz... this is bad.. gotta exercise more.. =( not a good sign...

sat got sec sch class outing.. gotta miss it.. haiz.. coz.. i've got other more impt things to do i guess.. tts band! lolx..

last nite went to eat prata.. then the table beside is OMG! pissed.. and i'm sitting so close lor.. at least opposite.. -_-" tt guys is totally an ugly singaporean.. all the words from the best dictionary comes out of his mouth... haiz..

o ya gotta say abt my band practice yesterday... self sectional.. as usual slack.. but at least i got some things done.. hope it can be of use.. in the next full band.. thursday come the combine sectional.. and it is another time for me to throw my face again.. so ya..

o ya of coz gotta thanx 2 frens.. one for listening to me another for jus an advice...

Fate is Evil & Cruel but sometimes i think he is not bad afterall still Kind & Caring... How ironic.. ok anyway there is a cycle going on de lor.. wad the.. so now going up the next moment it may jus go down... -_-"

for today nothing great happened... jus a day of slacking sleeping and eating.. o ya watching tv... watched so many hrs of discovery.. -_-" first time..

ok then... nitez..

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Fate is not easily being defected...

thanx to a few frens my day was fine.. though look glum...

fighting fate is not easy.. although i already noe wad's the ending will be like since the start of the fight... the fight with fate ended peacefully i guess...

though there is jus tt little bit of unjust.. but other than tt.. there is nothing.. nothing at all...

as the time of the day passes.. i get more relax over the thingy... thanx to my frens hu make me tok again.. and my family during dinner.. tt we had so much laughs...

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A day of chained events...

first started off the day waiting for a msg... but i also watch my drama lor.. tts wad i practically did the whole day...

sowhile watching tv... i also ironed some clothes as usual not nicely ironed.. esp with watching drama lor... lolx... evening had dinner as a family.. lolx... things are much interesting though...

till 1am... i msg again... while i continue to watch tv drama.. till abt 3am... ithink i left 6 disc or less.. lolx... then i msg again... als also chat with linda... i received a reply at last.. and had the most peaceful sleep ever since a long long time ago...

actually i knew it would be like this... and i long ago noe tt it is not fated.. but i try to combat fate as always... (sounding like super hero..) and in the end i still gave up... it isn't tt easy afterall...

and in the morning i msg back... yup... at last i can be free??? haha not so easy though.. there are more fated things to deal with.. (sound like super hero again) lolx... nah.. jus tt things are still within my expectations... only tt i've gotta get over it... :)

if u really care dun ask wad happened then.. :) jus stay happy and tok to a happy fren...

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Results

Got a shock in the morning.. so fast judgement day is here.. lolx... then i was like unable to sleep in peace... lolx.. woke up many times be4 9.. then later 9 plus woke up.. sian sleep again.. then woke up again later to c my results.. so happy called linda.. woke her up.. then after tt called my sister... then i went to sleep a while.. be4 i got up and bathe...

woke up.. bathe and is tv time... no one at home to share the joy though... so watch tv.. noon time msg.. and got a reply... so happy... do better for next sem ya.. ;) then so happy continue to watch my drama... after tt cook instant noodles... ate.. suppose breakfast lor.. and watch tv.. lolx.. after tt at abt 3.. sis (younger) got my lunch la.. abt 3 plsu eat again.. lolx...

while watching did some hse work.. ok one only la.. tts clean the floor... ok sweep.. only.. told my dad.. i got my results liao.. he is like ok.. sure very jialat de rite.. told him abt it.. then he even saw the result slip.. so ya convinced tt i got good results.. not excellent.. then bathe watch finish the disc and off i go for band.. lolx..

intereesting... using flute to play oboe part.. no oboe coz 1 oboe and 2 players.. how?? so nvm.. at least got frens there.. after tt is the busy part.. walk around the bukit timah area.. :X suppose to go mac.. in the end miss the stop la.. so walk back.. half way.. fren walking to the other side.. return fren phone.. so walk so far lor... then took a bus to mac again... lolx.. ask mac.. after tt went home..

went home alone... ya.. now waiting for my sis to come home... coz she doing her project... :S nitez..

RESULTS

Thermo: A
IPChem: A
BioMol: A
EnggM1: A+
ComToK: AD
IAComm: B+ (Stupid one)
Grade Point Average: 3.9623 (4.00 max)

ya gotta say sorry to linda again.. woke her up so early.. :X anyway heard of one coursemate got 4.00 lolx.. tts interesting rite.. anyway i'm jus too happy with my results.. 4.00 is nothing comapred to the mood i'm in now.. partly becoz of a msg.. :) nitez..

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My very boring day...

first.. woke up at like 7am... jus to write down some themes of my dream... then after tt went online to search.. ok i'm practically online throughout the nite.. so ya.. search their meanings... and found out tt my current life is in a mess.. ok nvm...

then went back to sleep.. lolx.. till abt 11 plus.. woke up and first thing bathe.. then after tt went down.. O and my breakfast came back.. lolx.. ok considered it as lunch.. lolx.. then got a big shock.. the packet is big big veyr big.. the box open and u c a mountain.. :X then ate 5 mouths like tt called to do things.. :@ hammer nail blah blah blah... ate half plus the pack.. and called to do things again.. haiz.. wad the.. life's like tt with my dad on leave.. everytime.. never fail..

then at last able to finihs my meal... then lazy around again.. called linda tok a while.. ok not really a while la huh.. :X lolx.. then slept... tts like through late afternoon till dinner time.. and it was the earliest dinner i had since a long time.. 6.15.. :X lame.. ok then ya being called to IRON clothes.. :@ another command for the day.. wad the... then iron and watch tv at the same time lor... tts like from abt 7 plus.. ya.. iron fast fast.. then can rest.. of coz.. must be nice though... but u c.. the clothes i iron is jus the same as not ironing.. wad's the diff?? haha

then watch tv again lor.. practically the whoel time watching tv.. then now blog lor.. wahhaa.. think i'll watch my deprived tv drama be4 i sleep.. so pissed off tt i can;t watch lor. argh.. o and bathe again.. lolx.. nitez.. anyway.. sometimes i think some things should not be seen.. argh.. life's getting worse.. :S

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linda's b day...

happy b day linda.. the dunnoe how many times i've been saying it.. :X 2nd time typing this entry in thie stupid blogger.. :@

first woke up at 11... back up my phone.. etc... then went to meet pl lor.. at the gek poh bus stop.. supose to help her pass present to linda.. but in the end we went to her place and pass it to her. had a small chat with pl along the way.. lolx..

then after tt went home... sleep.. lolx.. after my nap.. ok 1 plus hrs.. woke up bathe lor.. then go one.. reach there.. liting and gang no there sia.. sian.. so after tt i was ok.. helping out around lor... then linting and gang came.. tts like so late.. :X ok later then me la.. lolx.. after tt watch tv play cards.. lolx.. after tt linda went out.. she come back and we went to eat.. lolx... then had lots of fun lor.. wahhaa... though it is only eating.. lolx... then after tt played mahjong.. it is true la.. quite boring.. lolx..

they were thinking abt having a chalet.. lolx... provided i got $$ to go lor.. lolx.. sian.. these day no $$ sia.. so shag.. haiz.. no bank account also.. haiz.. wad the lor.. so it is like got money cannot spend...

anywya today was happy and disappointed.. haiz.. happy becoz can c my sec sch frens.. lolx. everyone changed a bit though.. lolx.. some more matured.. some jus like be4.. making fun of others.. lolx... but this disappointing thing is suppose to get something de.. but del it off.. -_-" haiz.. and also gotta part with my frens.. :) there is always a end to a start... so c when is the next start?? chalet?? :S lolx..

lastly happy b day linda.. again.. lolx....

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My first monday with everyone at home...

Dad's on leave till 9th oct... haiz.. mean terror... gotta do things for him de lor...

ok tts the intro... so the day started off well... slept till veyr veyr late.. coz of the camp.. suppose got an outing with my poly fren but i did not go la.... coz tired... then they meeting at taka 12 i woke up at 12.30 but i already told them i'm not going la huh.. lolx.. i msg myh fren... coz my fren's b day.. got back another fren's msg.. cursing me sia.. -_-" lolx.. but i noe it's a joke la..

then went on with my day.. watch some drama la.. vcd.. then watch half way.. mum and dad came home.. so ok my lunch is back.. eat my lunch while watching... then watch another disc half way.. dad off it.. :@... coz younger sister having exam... as though it is veyr big like tt.. i exam also no one cares abt it.. so.. haiz.. anyway.. deprived of my tv.. so pissed.. then was the comanding part.. :@ call me do this do tt.. haiz.. polished his car for him.. haiz. nvm... so anyway like tt lor.. after tt went for a run... saw siyi.. lolx.. haven been running lately.. coz of the exams.. camps etc.. so went out for a run lor.. lolx.. if not also lazy to do anything.. after tt dinner.. ate little.. coz kind of not hungry la..

then watch a bit of tv i think.. be4 i was back in my room... dling my gundam seed last ep.. while i was playing game.. suddenly sis scream..i thought wad happened.. is the toliet leaking lor.. the plumber came liao.. but jus now's prob and the prob now is different.. previously was the inlet.. now.. totally idifferent lor.. it is the leaking caused by excessive water in the water tank.. -_-" lame rite.. anywya it was a rainy nite la.. then after tt i was engaged in a small tiffy quarrel with my dad... then sopil my mood of playing game.. but i continue to play la... in my room wad.. the safest place i feel in the world.. is my room... not the living room or anywhere else.. coz it is a personal space i need to unwind lor... haiz.. then went to sleep... lolx..

received linda's msg of having a steamboat at her place... so i was ok.. suppose she say ya.. and suddenly ya.. she noes can liao.. but ok la.. i dun mind anyway.. :P thanx linda for inviting.. :)

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Band Camp 1

first reach there at 9.10am... then OMG.. i thought i was late.. walk so fast from the bus stop to the clubhse.. then chey... only like using my 10 fingers also can count hu there tt kind lor...

tts the morning.. till everyone's there.. it is abt 10 liao... so we were to do some cleaning in the club hse and the dorm... i helped in the dorm... do till wanna die though.. it is jus cleaning and cleaning.. clean till like everything is clean lor.. ok not the floor but the mattress... lolx.. after tt was lunch.. so many left over lor.. but kind of interesting coz got frens around lor..

after lunch is 4 hrs sectional... and then dinner... but say is sectional.. but i'm like kind of slacking la... then hungry. eat again.. :X lolx.. tts me.. wad can u do?? lolx.. then after tt dinner... stil only like use my fingers toes and another pair of hands can count tt kind lor.. missing sections... so cannot have full band.. kind of pissed off by it though... then was the "fun" part.. no conductor. some slacking coz it is like free time.. so we were having our own ensemble.. :X fun though... no conductor can played ourselves.. ok la tt song not so diff la.. jus some minor errors and not fast enough fingers.. lolx.. then came the nite.. no ton.. coz seems tt no one is lor.. and i slept late.. so sleep early..

day 2... woke up early... went to bathe in coldwater.. cold lor.. then was eating breakfast in the clubhse.. bread.. wahaha... then after tt went for sectionals again... conductor took us this time.. it is called combine sectioal.. played and played.. work on parts previously never work on be4.. or jus conductor dun wanna waste time on them.. now is his time to work on it lor... the came lunch.. full band.. lolx.. kind of interesting.. lolx.. i used flute to playu oboe parts.. coz there is no another oboe lor.. then i was thinking of using basson la.. i mean learn and play but seems difficult.. after the full band.. was dinner.. and after dinner... games... lolx..

pllayed some squarrel and tree.. -_-" adn water games.. -_-" coz my whole body to be soaked in flour and water plus soap.. then went to shower.. took a real long long time lor... super long.. busy scrubing and scrubing.. :X lolx.. then went out to eat.. supper.. lolx.. some where near by though.. then went back ;ate.. reached at 12.30am.. got scolded.. then went to the dorm played cards... in the end i slept.. too tired.. :X lolx.. then after tt was called up and everyone back to their own place and sleep.. tts like at 4.. :X lolx.. then woke up at 8.. lolx.. tts early.. went to shower.. then pack bag...

after tt brought it down to the music room... had breakfast.. then went for sectionals again.. then lunch... after tt is full band... played a long piece... ya and it took the whole time to practice tt piece... i was sitting there sleeping though... lolx.. of coz listening la... coz i a lot dunnoe... after tt is break camp... lolx.. dad came to fetch... so went home unpack everything lor... then ate home-cooked dinner... lolx.. and sleep... lolx.. nice to be home...

BTW... the concert is at VCH 26th nov sat starting at 6pm.. do come and support me ok.. ya get the tickets from ME... help me clear them off.. i got 10.. haiz.. -_-"

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