I Dunnoe

Today's at least a better day... but yet again... deep inside i'm still very very very tired very very veyr troubled...

o well reach sch late.. tts usual i guess... after lessons went for lunch on a kind of full stomach... haiz... jus no mood to eat.. o and got scolded yet again.. for not finishing the food... so lucky left a bit.. squeeze it in... -.-

anyway some "great" things happened along to way to canteen... shouldn't say much... went to library kind of like slacking but not slacking.. studying but not studying... ... no comments man... Jasper wake up! tml's ENV mock test... have u studied??

after every studying part in the library plus SLEEPING time included.. OMG.. then went to play pool... well horribly played yet again.. but at least i noe i'm concentrating on something rather than tt thing i'm so troubled abt... haiz...

after tt on the way home... trying to sleep my time away.. but kept thinking.. and thinking... still no way out.. haiz.. y not lets jus forget it? should i?

sian totally... days like tt are hard to get by... can someone help me... :( doubt anyone can... haiz...

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Red Wine Strawberry and Chess

U c anything in common??? But sadly i do...

woke up so early jus to go sch like reach at 7.20?? around then la.. so early lor.. OMG... but ok la... lessons as usual... so boring...

lunch also dunnoe wad to eat yet again... haiz... anyhow buy.. somethin i haven try be4.. lolx.. nothing new anyway... coz it is only the noodles different... -.-

after tt went to do tutorial lor.. OMG... i still dun c tt light my fren's toking abt.. sian... totally.. haiz.. then the question english so chim.. wad the... nvm...

after tutorial did those reports etc... OMG... it is seriously OMG again.. wad then sian... and guess wad went to play pool... played so horribly yet again... y thinking of something... after tt went to do a bit of shopping.. lolx.. no bad really.. at least i noe i can add another few fren whom i can seriously trust...

went home... ate dinner and drank red wine... jus to yet again try forgetting something... strawberries as fruits.. sweet (coz i added sugar) and continue my game of chess with my dad... O my finish the wine... tts like a bit only la.. ate the sweet strawberry and of coz lost my game of chess.. -.-

short day... coz i dun look at time at last trying to make myself happy forgetting everything...

O guess wad today i was like on the bus HIT some auntie's head... -.- O man.. coz the bus driver suddenly jam break and wanted to grab the pole in the end miss and hit ppl's head.. OMG.. so malu lor.. -.- haiz.. sian... stupid me...

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Serious

i think i'm jus a fool living in my own foolish-ness... seriously i've got nothing to say abt it...

well... went to sch... with a glum face... tts nice rite.. -.- haiz.. wadever it is.. jus hope things faster pass... hated this feeling... jus horrible...

played pool... tts nice activity to keep ur mind totally occupied... and tts wad i did... for 2 hrs i guess... gotta really thanx my frens for the entertainment... as usual... pool skills sux so lets not tok abt the game in detail...

went kap study for 1 hr and back to sch study again.. more like slept for 1 hr... then study.. at least i studied... haiz... waited till 7... rite time... sat there waiting for some kuku ppl... -.- to go home... more like chatting bah...wadever then...

ate veyr little today.. no mood for eating... tok very little today... no mood for toking... haiz... this is the time when 1 day seems like 1 year... -.- practically looking at the time jus to check wad time i can go home and sleep?? -.- this feeling sux... making my world go upside down jumping off the ceiling... haiz... soon it will pass... soon... let if fate away?? hu noes...

Dun tok to a foolish person like me... u'll jus kill urself trying so...

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Seriously Sad...

be4 i say anything... gotta wish a few ppl happy b day... joanna on the 27th may melinda and my dear (for fun) noreen on the 28th may and chariene (if i spelled her name correctly) on 29th may.. hope they have a nicer life than i do...

anyway this morning woke up kind of late... and as always... first thing computer.. but i did my tutorial ok... not another stuff like chating.. :X but morning.. no ppl to chat with anyway... haiz...

so well... not much mood to play but still had a game of chess with my dad.. and i'm loosing.. hopefully i can find a way out... we stopped half way yet again... lets c how things go... haiz...

afternoon chat abit of coz.. usual.. and i haven study... haiz... then chat till time to go out... so yet again... a time not to study... haiz..

evening was doing shopping and i did not buy anything obviously... haiz... tts me... if i would have i would have bought a lot of things jus to forget 1 thing? haiz....

then was evening... dinner at last ate a bit of good food... but unhappily ate my good food... still had a very filling jap food.. yum... but again.. thinking abt my mum.. haiz...

came home haiz... sian... really... back to the problem again... i'm like so sian... life jus dun seems to move on well... haiz.. tts Jasper's life wad u expect... most major events are like he dreamt of them be4... and guess wad things always go tt way y?? i dunnoe.. haiz... a bus ride to even take o level results... this is hmmm crap can i say tt??? haiz... wad the.. ok wad can i say tts my life.... :(

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Sat

hmmm.... woke up stupidly early... jus to go to sch... in improper attire... for helping to do some "shit" work to earn a CCA point... 4 hrs of work = 1 CCA point worth???

o well did registeration... did so many errors... and most imptly.. i think got a grp did not get their freebies.. :X nice job well done man... the most impt thing every student is looking for... lolx... did a bit of distance measuring... and guess wad... this 1 cca point is so difficult to earn... but some ppl real slack lor... guess tts the worth of 1cca point then...

after tt was hmmm kind of not in a good mood... ate the worldmost oily stuff... no choice.. coz let fren choose a number in the end... ended up there.. well after eating was playing with the oil... :X trying to make a big drop it takes a lot of patience... and tts wad i lack this afternoon...

went for a quick game of pool.. horrible... :X bad day... well i dunnoe... time to c how again lor... next time got $$$ then play liao.. paid for the table... lucky... enough $$ lolx..

walk back to sch for band... thanx my very good fren for helping to set up my instrument... and i seriously dun c y cannot change instrument when others can... nvm.. its over... i jus noe the tuning is bad... very... haiz... dunnoe jus felt the practice today is a bit.. hmmm... nvm... after band was like with my fren a diff on from the top... lolx... phew~! close shave... went back home so darn hungry.. promise to eat dinner at home uc~

after dinner is wad sleeping time lor.. :X OMG.. i'm so turning into a pig.. someone help!!! so here i m typing my entry... lolx... time to do tutorial.. :X

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Happy day.. but yet again.. BLUR

well... the title jus tells it all..

happy day.. y dunnoe.. lappy repaired... frenly person hu attended to me... no bad eh... repaired in 1 hr... -.-

went lunching and off to sch... dunnoe felt so much better than yesterday.. some reasons..

well.. not bad la.. the lab is a bit slack... but finished my WS on the spot.. nice rite.. one weekno worries.. but worry more of other stuff.. :X like tutorials.. and of coz need to study.. common test coming.. :(

well... a very nice and pleasent day really... no dinner though... jus a 2 slices of bread for supper.. interesting? weight loss plan working?? i doubt.. at all.. :X

ok then... ??? something are not meant to be said does it jus mean tt? hmmm well... lets life take it's course... :X bored yet again...

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Currently, i seriosly dunnoe y i'm so moody thees days.. :( OMG... haiz... wad to do... toda's a really bad day... and i mean very... first morning woke up late... jus 1 hr be4 lessons... how to reach school on time u tell me... then i prepare my stuff etc.. and guess wad.. my water bottle leak... and there goes my laptop.. :( then so sian for the whole day lor... haiz... and wad.. the stupid acer... suppose 3 year on site warrenty... and still wan me to go down personally... 3 year part and labour too.. andsay wanna charge me?? OMG.. and acer's aftersale service is totally horrible.. my fren's IBM tt evening the person came down to repair it... wad the hell rite. now tml sure call acer... and make sure they get down to collect my laptop be4 i go outof hse tml.. if possible repair it rite... -.-

besides tt... i've been very sad... sad over my life... happen to get a new specs.. and guess wad.. so many ppl got different comments... haiz.. izit really that bad... and also i've been thinking abt how i wan to live my life... but seriously... i got no $$$ :( time to find work really.. some where nice to work in... my frens a like saying these kind of job is not suitable for u lor... personally i think that there is a lot of restrictions to that job... and it dun seems that nice afterall... haiz.. i also so troubled by to many things.. it is as though the world is weighing down one u... really... haiz... been very moody... my frens are like Jasper are u ok... haiz... well wad can i say... if i say ya ok.. it is so fake coz my face alreadyshowing i'm not ok... and if i say not ok then they will ask wad happen... and i also dunnoe how to say lor... anyone can give a good explaination??

o welll my laptop is totally down... for dunnoe how long more really... lets jus c alrite.. i guess i can't live without music.. without my computer to be connected to my world 24hrs... :X wad the... guess this is my sad life...

anyway yesterday went to wwatch SAF band concert... so nice... very classical at some parts... and i'm obviously not an expert listener... so i dun really catch the rite interpretation for it. but overal it is a very good concert... and guess wad... it is time for me to pull up my socks... haiz... hard times ahead... anyway yesterday was a damn happy day... but today is such a horrible day.. c the contrast? i guess u guys dun but i do... haiz... y like tt i also dunnoe...

everyday a different name, everyday a different mood... that's currently best describe of me.... :( haiz... sian.... well using desktop so need to like fight for place... -.-

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Concert Aftermath

O well.. suddenly life's so boring... for no particular reason.. :X

HW one huge pile.. dunnoe wad to do with it... lolx... dun feel like doing it anyway.. haiz... sian totally... whole day slacking... concert aftermath.. i guess.. :X

well waiting for the recordings to listen... listen detect and improve hopefully..

o well... a very hectic week ahead... so many things to do... haiz.. let today be a day of rest.. lolx..

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It Comes With a Price

O well concert's over... my PTV is it is very horrible... this not good tt not good.. haiz.. i'm so very sad.. :(

anyway.... the terror's over i guess... :X but made a deal with this fren... die dunnoe if i can make it sia.. :S we'll c abt it... it is a pan pac dunnoe wad at stack..

ok so now after the terror... = another terror... which is = to HW.. my HW piling up like a mountain.. as tall as everest... c la... push and push... now u push till u have to push a mountain.. pathic fool... -.- m i scolding myself again??? ya i should.. everything jus faill me.. :( wad the hell..

o well... tml's a better day obviously... and guess wad.. i'm stuck at home parmently for the next at least 3 weeks.. haiz.. days are hard to get by even if it was jus one day.. :X

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Quick..

Quick quick end my sufferings... :X few more hrs to go.. :X but damn stressful la.. haiz... already got 5 pimps on my face liao.. sian... how to c ppl in concert? tell me tell me...

haiz.. dunnoe how things turn out well... i hope... i really hope.. fingers cross..

after tml the real suffering ends... yeah! looking forward to it.. but my dad's home.. good or bad? i dunnoe... c how bah...

pls pls... prey tt tml is a good day.. X: or rather later

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STRESSED!!!

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Finding Out

Hmmm.. izit very difficult for ppl to find out things.. hmm i guess again depends on the topic...

well went to sch trying to act like doing some work fromm 8.30 to 9am.. coz tt my IS lesson.. interesting huh.. then went to eat.. well... my other grp mate overslept so 30minutes only.. aiya... anyway next mondya no lessons.. day of REST!!! lolx.. look forward to it..

after lesson went to eat lunch... tts like 9am? :X lolx.. then abt 10 went to play pool... and OMG... as always i'm so lousy.. so wad u expect...haiz.. anyway... went back to sch to meet fren again... lolx... after tt chit hcat abit be4 i head home.. lolx.. u noe wad... slept in the bus almost fall over sia...

walk around with my mum.. be4 heading home for a yummy ham and cheese.. lolx.. ok la.. not tt yummy coz cold alreayd until i bathe ok.. then practice a bit.. got scolded coz y... take so long to go down for dinner...

slept the bus journey to sch.. :X scared over slept sia.. X: haiz... so half asleep like tt lor.. :X o well.. the band practice was damn horrible.. haiz.. i'm jus feeling so sad.. nvm... few more days... not very optimistic abt it though.. X: for my parts.. maybe is confidence leve bah.. i dunnoe... practice.. practice.. last few days.. nice huh.. i wanna go hug buddha's leg... where got the leg to hug leh.. haiz..

help... i'm dying of stress... then my stupid sister... idiotic.. nvm.. dun care... i need a miracle.... remember When You Believe... i really need tt 'Believe'... help!!!

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Happy Mothers' Day

Hmmm wad have u got for ur mum?? a kiss on her cheek, or jus some nice stuuf that she can adore herself with?? Wad u wish ur mum in this mothers' day? everyday dun do hse work? :X and be a taitai? lolx..

o well this mothers' day was delicated to... my lab report.. c la.. orbi.. serve me rite... anyway didn't manage to practice today.. haiz.. sad.. so wad i did.. practice singing.. lolx... ppls say it helps.. so y not give it a try... but hmmm singing and playing is a total different thing remember... o well.. this week outlook is depressing seriously...

anyway back to mothers' day.. went out after so long... as a family... great... after so long like 2 mths we haven go out as a family.. :X many things happened... o well lets skip those parts... had a nice chat with my frens... last nite... and tonite... lolx... i think my days are horrible.. nites are more interesting.. :X

At last i finished my report.. but i haven print.. :S still i think tml then print bah.. hand up tml.. OMG... haiz... my life's a bit boring serious... and hmmm maybe some extras tt made it a bit interesting only.. other then tt.. nothing else special happening...

O well reflection of the day... things might be getting worse in some aspect and in others is getting better by tt little bit? lets see abt it... days seems to be getting worse... haiz.. o and my typo is getting worse.. :X wad else i think i'm getting very lazy.. X: haiz... nvm la.. c how.. :S

alrite time to sleep...

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Izit.. or Izit not??

i think i'm the lousiest player around... haiz... nvm... seriously not in very good mood today... esp. when u wan something and u dun get it... u have an aim a goal but u dun achieve it at the end of the day... and u dun achieve it... plus it is accompanied by stress... tts the worse... suddenly felt so pressured... at all 4 directions... haiz...

dun wish to tok abt them... anyway gotta say sorry to my fren... :X not a a good mood u c.. X: haiz... bad.. :( jus not my day i guess...

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My O My

ok seriously i've been slacking...

trying to do this and tt but unsuccessful... OMG... and guess wad... i've got so many things to do.... haiz.. this is seriously bad.....

i think i have got a BIG problem with my breath support... for playing my instrument la... i think only... but i guess also could be i over-blow.. could it be?? i dunnoe.. i'll go consult a god..

next i think i'll be very veyr dead!!! after next week... my *ahem ahem* might be home for a mth... OMG OMG.... OMG....i can't believe this.. i think i'll try to get out of hse as much as possible... serious.. maybe go work or something.. haiz.. there goes my next 1.5 mths really.. OMG>.

ok gotta go.. so busy.. :( this is bad really... haiz.... future outlook of my life, HORRIBLE!

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What Have i Been Doing?

ok.. basically say slacking bah... :X

monday is like after lesson eat then do a bit of work go eat again.. then come home.. slack at home lor... out for band practice.. :X very interesting huh... -_-||

tuesday is like after school doing those tutorials again.. OMG.. they are endless!!! wednesday... also did the same... i can;t believe i use 6 hrs to do 6 tutorial questions!!! OMG... Jasper u are so stupid!!! argh... and still they are WRONG!!! OMG...

thursday... well.. tts the suppose "today" woke up like at 7 la.. OMG.. lesson's at 8... but actually i found out tt waking up early is fun lor.. :X lolx... must learn to wake up early.. but again.. i sleep late so wad's the diff.. did those stupid questions and still get them worng.. -.-

o well something are so hmm blur i would say... ya and is so very blur... haiz... did those equations jus messed up my life?? :X or my thoughts? ... haiz... life's so messy.. :( so is me... my room's getting worse day by day... those equations' fault again.. i guess... need to do up my room study also.. so wad u expect after studies obviously u'll jus throw things around.. like a mad person.. X: jus look at the mess man.. haiz..

O i found out one thing... a person like me complaining fat.. still eating mayo... haiz.. ok i'll go lose some extra pounds from tt mayo... hope i'm back in condition to run again lor.. :X coz tt day.. thinking food haven digest then go run.. in the end... now like tt lor.. stamina is gone... need to start all over again.. build foundation... -.- chim wad m i toking?? let's c how...

Guess wad.. my dad's home.. :( grounded at home yet again... :X

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Y me

How come i am asked to do this... :S stupid MC!!!!

wad are the things i have to write ar.. dunnoe la.. but it goes something like tt...

7 qualities of ur perfect lover...

1) someone hu i feel comfortable with
2) falre for music or sports
3) talkative
4) outgoing
5) loves to travel overseas
6) spend on things to spend save on things to save
7) Yet again depends.. :P

how come have got to write this kind of thing.. i dunnoe... -.-stupid MC.... next time call me go c ur blog i'll think twice already.. :P lolx..

o well... today went for band practice.. not bad eh... ok la.. wrong notes here and there... but still ok bah.. i guess.. :X hopefully.. :X ppl like me is bluff my way through de bah... tuning is horrible skills like shit.. wad else can i say? i'm a lousy player... tts the conclusion.. dun expect good playing from me i guess.... :X having nervous breakdown liao... haiz... bad...

happy day.. but a bit sian.. sleeping on my stand lor.. :X as in my forehead is partly supported on the stand.. lolx.. close eyes there listening la.. obviously.. then went to comic shop there... i also dun borrow comics.. so sit there sleep.. :X OMG.. ok la.. tts abt all for the day bah... still i ahve no $$$ sad case... :(

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no comments really... no money... nothing to look forward to... searching for tt something but still can't find u c... it is jus somewhere close i guess.. gotta find again... or did i jus miss it?? :X cocnert's drawing close... i think i need to have more flexible fingers.. how to train any suggestions?? OMG... so totally broke man... haiz... this is bad.. i'll go start finding a job... somewhere nice.. and something i like... lolx... meaning i gotta plan my time liao... haiz.. dunnoe how sia.. :X this is bad really... pls pls.. must get one.. :X if not there goes man.. i'm now a negetive value person... :( bad bad... can someone help??? argh... wait till i get back my $$$ and i go work more $$$ wahahaha... think too far... back to reality.. tutorials are so damn difficult... headache... jus looking at it... floo with info.. then after tt dunnoe how to do liao... stuck... nice huh.. HELP!!! hu can... change ppb to mg/L haiz... or the other way round... wadever.. then how to find strain?? haiz.. more tutorials coming up man.. i haven even do lor... no comments reallly.. haiz... report... haven started and supose this week hand up?? OMG... no time.. today got badn yesterday also band.. nice huh... but wad can i say??? haiz... ok in any case i'll go work!

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Stone...Slack...

those 2 words are in my dictionary the whole day...

OMG... this is bad u c... woke up at 8 and lesson at 9... rush like hell... reach sch at 9.20.. no bad tts my frens' comments.. -_-|| like wad's tt not bad.. lolx.. ok i noe la i'm always late.. :X

whole day like half sleeping.. X: but ok la.. at least still did some work... :X lab session lucky chit chat i tell u.. if not tt experiment sure fall asleep de lor.. X: gotta do a report.. :X there goes.. :X sian..

gotta study.. those tutorials are killing me slowly.. :X

went home early also same de la.. no study.. whaha.. today so interesting.. hmmm ok la.. not bad a day i guess... and guess wad i eat yoghurt for lunch... no appitite lor.. haiz... dun tok abt it... so sian.. :X

the most amazing thing tt happened today... the bus stop is so crowded with ppl tt my frens and i were standing on the road waiting for bus.. nice rite.. imagine the crowd... tts singapore.. :X

well hope somethings are going fine really.. :X really...

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IN DEBT!

OMG.. I'm so seriously in debt... really.. haiz....

sian.. there goes man... owe ppl so much money.. :X ok hope i can remember to take $$$ out tml.. or rather later.. haiz.. damn forgetful mind.. summore someone jus controls all those $$ which means.. die le la..

dig gold haha.. my room no gold mine lor.. and seriously no gold resources.. haiz.. that's my sad life... haiz... dun tok abt it... damn sian...

when i have $$ and when i have $$.. haiz.. tts a thought...

but anyway... damn happy day.. really.. lolx... come back hmm late bah.. X: haiz.. i wan $$$ tts all i need for now.. is NEED not wan.. :P

but lessons today damn boring. haiz.. lots to cover.. and lots to absorb... my brain cannot take it.. so well.. good luck Jasper..

I wonder... still wondering.. and seriously wondered... still i get no ans out of it.. how? :X c how bah.. lolx...

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Happy Days.. lolx.. :P

Dunnoe y jus feel happy... :X lolx... but seriously financial outlook is horrible... OMG.... haiz... really damn broke.. :(

o well yesterday was hmm kind of busy?? :X went sch as usual boring?? :X ok la.. not so after all.. jus happy mood these days.. X: lolx...

then was home to watch movie.... lolx... at HOME... so poor u c.. haiz... then at nite print my lecture notes.. OMG.. i seriously need to go nian jing already.... killed dunnoe how many trees lor... tt stack of paper.... but funny thing is the printer say no black liao.. still can print black pure black out lor.. huh... -.-

chat lots as usual... lolx.. nice time chatting though.. :X lolx.. :P slept very late la.. then morning still wake up hmmm ok lor.. abt 7.. :X suppose alarm at 6.30 snooze lor.. wahhha.. :X tts me.. :X

first time in the whole sem.. hmm last week till this week la.. lolx.. took a bus from boonlay interchange to sch.. :X lolx... haiz. long journey.. lolx.. saw my sec sch fren... chat on the bus.. :X then in sch walk half way saw my sec sch classmate.. :X OMG... busy rushing to lecture after doing some things at the dunnoe wad centre.. X: reach lecture thought i'm late.. :X but i'm hmm on time or at least lecturere haven start lecture.. lolx..

skip the lecture part.. :X wa lao.. eat also will kanna suan.. !@#$%^& lolx.. ok la... nvm... but thinking again.. damn funny lor.. yesterday crave for chicken rice so today eat.. lolx.. nice nice.. :X wahhaha... skip the lecture part again... went to JP with frens.. lolx...

ate very long anyway saw sec sch teachers there.. OMG... no chance to tok lor.. haiz.. nvm bah... fate will let us meet again.. -.- loxl. ;P so now at home... doing nothing.. :X all i wan is enough $$$ to spend... :( but other than tt now i'm jus happy in general these days.. dunnoe y.. whahah.. something happy abt?? :X wad's so happy? :X

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Weak Heart???

Dunnoe if i have lor...

woke up damn late today.. lolx.... these days i like eat 4 meals a day lor... :X

omg growing fat.. summore eat liao then sleep... :S this is really bad.. my outlook to the next few weeks is realy bad.. X:

OMG... i think i have a very weak heart... cannot stand scares.. :X argh... so many shocking things today.... :( so sad also... haiz... wad's my world becoming.... :X OMG...

dun wanna say much.. wah.... later review so many secrets.. X: OMG.. X: cannot say.. zip.. :X

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hmmm rot at home.. X:

nice man... woke up late... rot the whole day..

ok la.. did a bit of hw.. tt totally cost my whole afternoon.. y... tv on... so was like watching the tv lor.. OMG... no concentration to study...

then be4 dinner was sleeping.. X: lolx... then after dinner... watch tv... :X OMG jasper growing fat huh.. this is bad.. :X lolx..

o well... need get my simple life.. *nod nod*

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