Re-cap

This 06 is kindof a bad year... many things happened... many events shocked my world.... created many imbalances... and out of these imbalances... i'm looking for a balance... in everything... but in vain...

last few mths of the year... always have something tt shock my world... i did not know frens can do such things... ok i already knew but y again... this i dunnoe y.. it is like u have nothing to do so find something to do.. and u did it so tt u are happy but selfish-ly making others sad... i did not say i'm wrong but if i'm not rite u aren't either... coz u were also in.. and now i noe hu can be trusted hu cannot... and one more thing... i c the fellowship breaking... how saddening...

i've been very very busy since march... having a fren hu is always busy jus keeps me going influence maybe... lolx... first was the may concert... i screwed totally.... had a competition... then i start to get busy with another cca... so well... the last few mths of the year.. i'm so totally packed jus when things are at its peak something come and jus blow everything up... linked... may concert... july competition sept aust trip nov concert and concert and dec also concert plus public performance.... i'm so tired so i decided to take leave from my ccas... as long as possible... as much as i wan...

my studies.. been going down... haiz.. maybe becoz of my involvement in ccas??? and lots of underhands tts y... and well... there is no logic for this downfall abt my ability but not tt much... however it has logic and sense when u start putting in the factors of humans... :D well... to many i aim is not studies but cca.. but they are wrong... however it is wad they think so let them be... i dun care... it only makes my blood boil... however i'm very very unhappy with the way some ppl do things so all i can say is keep my mouth shut... make more problems tts so not necesary for myself... hu's rite hu wrong hu's good hu's bad.. u noe urself... and let it be...

family.. my family is i dunnoe becoming bad... i dunnoe how to explain but i think this part should not be reflected here...

love?? if i even have any... all i can say is sometimes somethings are so blur... and seriously was it once be4 or not i dunnoe... how i wish... i knew the ans... are somethings done on purpose to show?? or trying to get away from something?? ok.. this part will also not be discussed here...

and my b day wish of going to a club only come true in my dream... how sad rite... nvm... and i'll be getting my new year resolutions soon... or rather already thinking... many changes will take place i guess... hopefully... and of coz to say not to care abt others... argh... be urself.. :) till then... "forgive and forget" y my fren loves this phrase??

but well to those hu really noe me... all i can say is i'm still a fren 24hrs on standby... :) o and haiz... i did not re cap... too tired already... coz it'll be freaking long... but this year... is the year tt i experience the worse ups and downs.. hmm or rather jus all down and some ups.. = net movement down.. in many areas.. but a net movement of up in many areas.. lolx.. ;-)

this is a year tt may jus be forgotten down the road... but remembered up the road.... :P

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27th dec..

Happy B Day to my sister!!! lolx...

o well... wad have i been doing the past few days... eating eating and eating... OMG.. seriously.. i understnad y need to watch wad u eat... ate a lot la.. of junk... :X help.. i wan the sun the sun!!! but ok i rather now rain and rain and rain... then till i really have the urge to do outdoor sports then have sun sun sun.. y then i can be a bit more tan... ppl say i like lizard... haha.. anyway a bit sick of indoor sports already... since whne i was primary 4 tt i stopped swimming... and = no more outdoor sports... ok pls dun count running... coz to me it is not very outdoors... where u'll love to sun.. lolx..

lets tok abt today first.. woke up early in the morning... to orchard.. collect my phone then go WA nokia... look at phones then quarrel with my dear mum... abt wad an underpass to lucky plaza... so well.. like tt lor.. coz she wanna go there.. then after tt walk back... took a train to JE.. went to IMM had lunch with my dad and his fren mum was also there... then dad bought another b day present for my sister... so jealous... she got a phone and now a micro hi-fi... ZzZz.. me i got nothing... dotz... yup at home slack around did some work and relatives start coming so bbq start lor... there bbqing from start til end.. gosh.. and i did not eat much... my lungs totally blacken by the soot.. :X nothing much so yup.. chat and all...

yesterday.. actually i forgot wad i did.. :X went to westmall.. coz sisters wanna get a new phone each!!! OMG... so argh.. nvm... feeling so wadever... i wan a phone with good cam and also one more.. wifi... aiya... till i can change phone then say... or rather if i wanna change.. :X actually i wanna change but cannot find a phone tt suits.. :X and my mum always tok abt selling phone.. ZzZz... so well.. like tt lor... dotz..

25th dec... Merry Christmas... and i think i did nothing the whole day.. hmm should be went out bah.. dun remember... lolx.. really it is like jus one day forgotten.. :X omg i have short term memory... and u noe wad... my laptop seems like going to break down soon... gosh...

ok then... tts abt all i'll blog...

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Merry Christmas

ok.. seriously.. i dun feel the christmas mood.. X: anyway.... this year santa again.. did not give me wad i wan.. :( jus a wish a year... and i always dun get them.. so wad should i say?? hmmm dun wish for them??? then they'll come true?? :X
"i need someone to lean on..."
o well.. jus been so pissed the past few days.. becoz of hu... my great old man... Dad.. he's been pissing me off totally.... i mena seriously.. u jus think of it... first ask u to follow his instructions.. then after tt say this and tt.. then say u never use ur brains.. O pls.. u say follow ur instructions then now say i no brains.. wad's more... would u hang a foldable table on the wall.. and u noe u are going to use it the next day.. like dude... ZzZz... then tell me again.. hu's hse got no shoes de?? shoe rack u wanna shift it behind... as in after the kitchen.. like OMG... lame la..
"to love, to let me feel their warmth..."
aiya.. still got a lot never say... dun wanna say also.. waste my breath... jus it is very good i did not let off the steam... anyway the stitch at home is getting cuter.. i dunnoe y.. lolx.. :X ok lame... i'm so tired..."i seriously need but the only person hu can give tt to me now.."
o yesterday... woke up so freaking early to go market with my mum... then free labour help her carry stuff.. -.- then she say.. o if u wan u can ask ur frens to come over tonite (lastnite)... so like last minute... then i'm like erm.. ok.. but i was thinking now then ask... ever since they started planning for this stupid thingy... they did not even tell or ask if i'll get my frens over... -.- so well.. dun care la... ask but no one came so boring... as in my frens... so like tt lor.. anyway i also very tired... need to control the pressure build up within me.. need to do all the stupid things..
"is i noe yet i dunnoe..."
o well cleaned and ok la. not too bad.. had a nice shower and slept.. woke up by my mum again... everytime she wakes me up.. sure get all the scoldings be4 i get up.. lolx.. :X poor mum... ya like tt lor.. continue the cleaning and now so freaking tired.. :X feel like sleeping... yawnz...
"ailey.."

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10Minutes

i seriously have no idea hu's reading my blog.. but hu cares.. lolx..

anyway.. 10 minutes jus sums up my 9 mths of stress... this is a 9 mths i'll never forget.. first was preparing for PnC since march... may performed (i think dun remember).. then got into the national band competition in july... then start preparing for rondeau in nov... had an aust cultural trip in sept... mean while choir having ap on 24nov so also need to prepare.. and got MWS on sundays... when sch reopen... i'm totally packed from monday to sunday and... the cycle repeats... after 4th nov i haven been to the band room for a long long while but been practicing the choir and aca stuff for AP and MWS and again.. = everyday... execpt sunday.. one of the most stressful week is tt ap week.. tt sat and sun rehearsals and from wed till sat rehearsals and sat perform... monday and tuesday rest so went to get my stuff etc.. and after 24th nov.. 9th dec MWS performance.. chiong at home study a bit practice a bit... do so many other stuff too.. like going for choir practices to practice christmas carols... :X at least it suppose went well... then full trottle for studying common test... and after tt no rest... had singng assessment and 3 chirstmas performance... so yesterday was the last and it jus sums up my whole year of events... not to forget i have NDP SYF and SCSM event?? did put in coz not cca.. :X lolx...

o well... 10 minutes... now i'm left with 9 bucks... and i cannot even take it out.. argh.. pathetic.. start claiming $$$ already... then must have a budget proposal... this christmas... i haven got myself anything!!! so stupid... haiz... but i jus noe i'm dead totally... resting... resting... i needa suntan i'm now sick of indoor sports already... when was the last time i was tan... i dun remember... not in recent history...

new year's resolution.. i'll think again.. :X

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Playing Along

now i think i noe wad's happening.. really... haiz... at last the truth is out.. i guess...

o anyway cyberwars again.. this time i'm not involve.. hahaz... it had better not be.. but the next one will be me again bah.. i guess.. haiz.. jus u watch.. :(

so well.. wad can i say... i need some help!!! :X ok la.. not really... jus some skills... :X

tml's performance.. :S i scared.. first time having a public performance... at ngee ann city also... haiz.. headache.. later throw my face how? :X let c bah... hope it'll be not so bad...

maybe able to c my long no c fren tml too.. :X lolx...

well.. interested or not interested.. difficult to plan... suddenly felt fencing is so interesting... lolx.. i wanna go learn.. :X i hope i can... but where???

went for badminton today.. suppose not playing de.. in the end played.. and u noe wad i'm so freaking poor now!!! -.- haiz... this is damn bad

i'm suppose to buy a bag.. in the end.. haiz.. dun say already.. :( damn sad la.. haiz...

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-.-

how many days of not blogging??? dunnoe... i jus noe i'm so busy resting... must rest.. cannot dun rest... coz look at my calender again.. haiz... next 9 mths is hell... :S

hmmm... i dunnoe la.. jus very bored these days... nothing much to do... so lets recap a bit... monday did not do much... slack at home lor... if i remembered correctly.. lolx...

tuesday more interesting... went town... coz phone broke down... then go nokia care lor... met my fren went town... slack a bit.. eat lunch... then walk around look look c c... then got chritmas cards.. haiz.. so expensive can... -.- plus my sis's b day card.. haiz... a bomb... ZzZz...

after tt went to repair my phone.. they took in for evaluation... -.- if i dun repair gotta pay 26.25... like ... dotz... then dunnoe wad they doing... 180 to 250 la... so ex can... -.- if so die liao la... haiz... i think might as well change a new phone... haiz... so sian.. totally... then went back to sch... practice a bit then went off for performance... -.- like haiz.. dunnoe la... anyhow.. lolx...

ate at the clubhse lor... then went to halo bar.. -.- spent so much there can.. -.- in the end i paid for everything... ZzZz.. but i'll get the $$$ back of coz..i'll make sure... if not i got no $$$ already... haiz... sian totally... went home took a cab la... -.- so ex lor.rain so heavily summore.. so sian.. argh...

first thing u smoke ar.. -.- i'm like erm.. ZzZz... other ppl smoke can... wa lao... headache lor... so yup like tt...

so Wednesday came faithfully... and yup went for facial... OMG.. dun c my face it is all red polka dots... not going to exercise for the next few days liao.. :X till it gets better.. at least the redness goes off... haiz... sian... then ya whole day at home.. so sian la... wad a face i have.. :( i'm like thinking abt my next mth... :X it is so messy... got one thing no $$$....

i wan a new bag... haven buy yet... maybe get my dad to get one for me.. lolx.. i haven got things i wan... :(

i still love it but... i dunnoe how to say... not within reach?? haiz... sian totally... :( maybe i need to sun myself more.. i haven get my surf shorts to go for beach activities.. :X sianz...

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Still Resting

lolx.. cannot be much happier to rest so well... but jus i think i needa sleep earlier... if not wake up 8 plus 9 or even 10 so late already cannot go exercise... haiz... dunnoe leh.. haiz... i think i go exercise later.. lolx... but again.. haiz.. damn lousy la... make me dun feel good... :X

so much problems around me... at least mine was over and i dun bother abt it.. jus like tt lor... but others.. haiz.. i dunnoe.. i like ki-up in the centre like the platter in the hambuger or the filling in the sandwich... but at least i noe a few things.. i also dun wanna be KPO la.. but i jus hope my frens are all well... and good... so in the end like i KPO like tt... haiz.. dunnoe la... i guess i should jus let it be rite.. coz not my problem... but again... in a whole uncut pie... u put in the fridge for like 2 to 3 sems... then u now take out and c... OMG... my so many lines... so many CUTS... then like they are melting apart shifting away from the other... haiz...

nvm.. y make myself so sad over these stuff... sometimes i jus felt something should not have been brought up... but again... it's humans.. so yup... some i felt it is not a problem but u make it a problem... some is an issue.. but u decided to throw ur issue aside and find more problems... -.-

o well... so much for saying tt... still wad is frenship??? it is in the simplest term... trust... it is the trust tt u give to another person.. how much trust = how close the fren is... but sometimes even ur closest fren dun agree with u... but when u put so much trust and tt trust is bleached... as in like back-stabbed or betrayed then it will be very very difficult to give the person trust again... so bottom line... dun give trust unless u really trust the person... but tts called selfish.. haiz...

ok sorry.. need to rant abit on the ideaologies of Jasper.. :X

anyway.. Sunday practically whole day of eating... afternoon ate kind of a big portion.. bigger than normal.. and dinner.. OMG.. coz mum treat ppl to eat.. then haiz.. eat so much la.. need to go exercise already... still dun exercise die liao... lolx...

i wish i wish upon the shooting star... tt this christmas... i'll be happy...ailey... but did u noe... haiz...

i think i should go get myself things i like.. but again.. no $$$ leh.. haiz.. damn sian.. so where do $$$ come from?? haiz...

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Happy Me??? Happy U??? Happy Everyone??? Lame... -.-

i dunnoe now at least i noe i can take leave from ccas... at long last... Ahhhh!!~~~ my rest...

i gonna rest rest rest.. so yup.. dun think so much.. y ppl like to block ppl.. this is complicating... ya very complicating... but it is humans u deal with u c... there is no 100% i noe wad u thinking kind... but u wan u can ask... which sometimes u dun even get the real ans.. so yup... somethings are better to be kept quiet abt.. somethings are better to ask... but somethings happen jus dun bother dun bother...

life is more than jus dealing with stupid ppl... so make ur life worth... make ur life alive... and so dun bother abt such small things... get over it... and really must get over it... and wait for the next BIG thing.. lolx.. -.- so discovery channel..

haiz... well... today sang and forget lyrics.. OMG.. i canot believe it.. haiz.. dun bother... no choice ar... suddenly forgot... c bad thing abt being so yaya.. -.- sian... nvm la.. haiz... been so crazy the whole day.. there irritating ppl... lolx.. ok la... tts me.. no choice... then after tt go back...

some political stuff... i scared to said to step over ur head... but again... it is for the good of the concert... but again.. i dunnoe.. haiz...

ok next year till may is already planned.. like haiz.. again... as in ccas... and studies.. haiz.. i really think i should not have chose nestle.... really... 2 reason.. wad i heard from senior.. 2nd suddenly felt it is a no.. i need to run around.... cannot stand at one place doing nothing but repeated job... running around helps... :X

family... sometimes i felt very restricted.. but again.. dunnoe la.. never try.. so dun care.. after my rest lets start my life.. lolx... i needa get some life... away from music... and i need to start exercising.. hu wanna go do sport with me.. again.. no one.. haiz... dun care... :(

i'm so unpopular.... haiz.. no choice... anyway must find a way to make my face better.. :X it is so bad now.. haiz... :(

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REST!!!!!

at long long long last.. i can rest... away from all stupid stuffs... lolx... at last man... really... haiz... i'm seriously going to take leave... for a period of time... all these jus makes me so argh... :(

well... maybe i needa really plan my time again... coz april 2 big performance are 1 week apart... which is such a killer for me... argh.... :( how how tell me how??? dun perform for one?? like miss the chance... then perform for both so stressful.. so itis like.. haiz.. i dunnoe... :(

but anyway now's rest time... next week 2 christmas carols not a problem i guess... nothing to stress on actually... so guess i should jus breeze through this.. lolx..

wad's more.. i think i should get a bit tan... and exercise more... i haven been exercising for the past 3 to 5 mths i think... it is tt bad.. haiz... i wanna go swimming... i wanna go running... i wanna do outdoor sports... haiz... hu wanna accompany me??? :( my sisters are no way lor.. ask frens already... lolx...

anyway christmas is coming... haiz... means time to spend?? not necessary... but still need to c how lor... i wan this and i wan tt... OMG... :( but seriously now orchard is getting crowded.. :X which is a bad sign... ok to say i love to slack in town... but so far from my hse.. :( still i wanna go town...

anyway i guess this holiday i need to rest totally from all aspects of my life... esp studies and cca... if there is even a love maybe should also add in hor.. lolx.. but haiz... damn sian la... if u get wad i mean... like it is like... argh nvm... usual of ppl not msging me... so dun bother...

haiz.. this festive... will be another damn sad one for me... :( i wish i wish upon the shooting star... but so dun care bah... life gotta go on... and it is running at light speed... haiz...

let it snow let it snow let it snow... Jasper's in a sad mood..

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haiz... i dunnoe.. really i dunnoe... so idiotic... the paper.. is haiz.. be4 the paper is the killer.. so freaking stress can.. but ok la.. it turn out quite well... so yup... :) hopefully jus hopefully... haiz..


i feel like sleeping... i feel like asking... i feel like so stress abt the next paper... coz still need to hand up a 6 question tutorial lor.. wad lao.. sian totally... later need to study liao.. :(


left very few hrs to study lor.. :( haiz... now feeling abit more happy... at least i noe i have a stone down.. i need to really study well... this exam must do well... i dun care against all odds... but again i cannot keep to my promise as always.. :(


i dunnoe... but seriously i really dunnoe... i dunnoe anything abt tml's test... haiz... how man.... totally... -.- the worse is friday's.. haiz.. no comments..
i dunnoe.. but U jus mean so much... u noe... haiz... y m i suddenly like tt again...
anyway.. tml's another impt fren's b day... haiz.. no choice cannot celebrate..so yup... sian.. got this stupid ct... argh.. :( die le la...

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Maths

i tell u... this CT was doomed to fail in the first place.. and indeed it is... 1st lost lecture notes... nvm... 2nd nothing i studied goes in... 3rd so careless.. and all adds up to... fail... haiz...


i'm so irritated... so so so irritated... y y y... y others can understand i cannot understand.. how come U can get an ans i cannot... argh!!! so freaking hell pissed by this MODULE RENG!!!! sounds easy looks easy come to doing it... die le la... haiz... it is like so wadever...


i still cannot forget the maths and allthose to come man.. argh... U.. U... y can't u solve urself??? can't coz U are the question... argh... lame letme be.. -.-


argh!!!! *slam slam slam* ROAR!!!! U*poke*U*poke*U*poke*U*poke* idiot... cannot stand u already... maybe i'll jus give up this ct.. haiz.. gotta smoke thorugh this ct already... argh!!!
Y... u tell me... Y u... YYY i wanna noe... haiz.. i dunnoe really wad have U gotta do with me...
enough is enough!!! *slam* i'm gonna sleep!!!
and i.. ok not i but jus y u jus affect me so much... haiz... m i the cause of it??? m i... sad and lost...

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can't the equations solve by themselves

argh... CT is killing me... suddenly need to learn everything... coz i totally never listen... totally never keep track or revise my work at all..

sunday slammed the table monday also slammed the table.... hope the table dun give way so quickly.... :X but i jus kind of shortened its life span maybe.. :X

RENG i totally...dunnoe wad to say... there is still the TPFF and Bio Pro i haven touch.. argh...

today's ELTECh... died liao la... a few wrong already lor.. = no A liao i think.. or worse might fail... haiz.. heck la.. and u noe wad i lost my lecture notes for maths chapter 1 and 2... = the whole ct paper.. = no need to study liao lor.. OMG... sian... totallly...

haiz... sometimes i dunnoe... jus like tt bah... since the start of the sem this ct is doomed to fail... -.- so haiz.. no choice.. hu call me to be so busy.. only i have to be blamed... no one else...

y are ppl giving me weird looks these days... -.- i dunnoe y... enlighten me pls.. anyone... plus sometimes i dunnoe... jus felt weird.. all those eyes... :S

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PostConcert

yup.. concert's over in a wink of an eye... like wow... but seriously SCH is a bit too open... :X like mistakes can be heard.. veyr easily.. :X esp the oboes... out of tunes etc... :S anyway i'm practically sight-reading through a few pieces.. :X ok or rather i haven practice at all... jus like happen to find out tt i need to play them 2 practices be4.. and having so many other stuff i really have no time to pracitce.. so will at least it is a very fun experience.. lolx... really.. ;)

i'll remember the sundays where i woke up... gotta rush to sch first.. meet frens and then rush down to the CC for practice... i'll remember the few ppl i met along the way.. and esp the oboist beside me... cool experience he has... lucky him... unlike me though... having being playing oboe for the same number of years... the experience he have is like wow.. compared to mine.. -.-

but at least i can safely say something... there is always a "warm-up" session like the first few pieces of the concert or rather one nice piece to start off with.. and i'll be a super good concert for me.. ;) the joy of making music... i suddenly realise...

ok tts abt all for concert.. jus noe tt i spend like practically 40 bucks... for the whole day.. -.- so wad did i spend on.. i also dunnoe.. money jus fly... hate it... now gotta find back all my lost $$$ then keep them safely...

now common test is like tml. i haven started studying at all.. not a bit... now i really need to buck up man... this is so gonne kill me totally... i'll never go in unprepared but i'm scared... haiz.. pls pls.. i ned a bit more time and a lot of help!!!... anyway i was awaken from my thousands of years of sleep to do wad... pull up the binds... wad the...

o well to comment also.. friday is like..-.- they recorded the new phrase i use these days.. wadever for i dunnoe... u noe tt piak u then u noe... -.- haiz... so now wad... they gonna make it into a ringtone?? -.- plus the video i make so super -.- la... they ask me to do so do lor.. then take.. haiz.. sian... totally... and now... everyone cs it.. -.-

o well actually i think the class noes abt it... i also dunnoe wad to say.. this is called intruding my privacy... ok be4 starting to accuse ppl.. i jus really wanna noe how they noe... it is like haiz... how the hell.. -.- "i think he hates me"

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tired really

i need rest.. thursday was so horrible i slept on the bus... and the uncle or any one did not callme up la... then the uncle park his bus already then i suddenly jump up.. OMG.. parked at the bay.. so xia suea la... -.- OMG...

nothing much la.. jus thursday went home early.. lolx.. study a bit lor.. omg a bit only.. friday is like in sch morning.. reach there jus nice.. i'm like so freaking stress.. coz haven finihs my resume... lolx..

then bioreactor etc.. the lab group with another 3 gals then they say it is an all gals team.. 'm like wad the f***... pls lor.. so wad if they are gals.. and pls be reminded i'm not... -.- argh...

finish my resume and one hw.. then u noe wad.. i did not noe they went to get teh reactor out... then like i went to submit my resume.. and then saw my grp mates... then after tt beings said by others never go help.... i'm like -.-

haiz.. so wadever it is.. like tt lor.. went for practice last practice be4 concert... like at last... it sounded good.. in general.. so should not be a prob bah.... lolx.. hopefully... with powerful ppl around.. should go well bah...

jus it is an experience... cool one tt is... better than some other bands... well i think i should go practice mroe expose to more bands too... to improve... :X i guess... lolx.. well but for now... i wan these few things faster over and i'm done!!!

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the WAR

u noe wa.d.. the war does not involve me.. i'm like the neutral party... trying to make things go well.. haiz... so well... now they are toking at least.. but in wad way?? shouting form... and very sharp words and tone la... not scolding but aiya u noe they are not hapy with each other... so help me!!! argh...

this is like OMG... anyway gotta let go... :D find find find... haiz...

maybe i should join an acting club too... or maybe dancing?? lolx... suddenly got the urge to dance.. ok lame... nvm... anywya my mp3 is like so freaking short la.. as in the song list... already full liao lor.. and u noe wad.. it is only 3 hrs.. -.- dude.. sian diao... ok la.. tts abt al.. i need to do up the resume... is so freaking difficult.. haiz..

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Forget it

seriously... i dun understand somethings are like... y must show teacher?? so wad if u have something to show... i going to show everyone u noe.. wadever for?? anyway dun care not my prob...

o well its actually a good excuse to be going off early... at last went to the bank!!! so sian.. after so many days.. then go home...

haiz.. my mum and sisters are like having coldwar.. -.- so now i'm like stucked in the middle... and u noe wad the next person to get shot will be me.. jus u watch... haiz..

but at least i'm like still toking to my mum its ok la.. but ya u noe..

haiz.. damn stress ar... next week's CT is gonna be a killer for me.. really not lying this time.. dead totally... and plus this sat concert... OMG.. playing haiz.. die le la... so not prepared for it.. :S actually not much heart for it.. :X

o well... i think can go look for a bag liao.. my bag seriously going to cannot use already.. :X then i also need to find one small small one.. coz if not nice.. lolx.. anyway haiz... looking at my $$ also another die liao lor.. went to sch with $0... for 2 days already... cannot believe it lor.. :S

anyway i dunnoe la... now i'm so freaking blur abt wad i should do... :( maybe i should jus not think so much?? guess so... *nodnod*

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well... plan time

ok... went to orchard on monday imprompt outing...be4 tt after lesson met my frne at IMM... then head for town... slept in the bus la... so freaking tired... no choice.. then helpsomeone to do a survey... and then go heerens walk a while slack a while... walk here walk there.. and go home.. the bus journey took freaking hell 1 hr i think or even more.. :S but u noe wad... i slept through.. and so warm.. haiz..

reach home did my stuff ate dinner and soon after went to sleep.. tired.. lolx.. then tuesday woke up early jus to go to sch for lesson... saw my sec sch classmate then chat a bit.. then boarded the bus then my current classmate saw and sat beside me... chat a bit.. well good then.. like tt lor.. went for lesson haiz.. dunnoe wad's wad so well.. bad...

went to eat lunch.. and OMFG.. i did not bring $$$ la.. wad the hell rite... haven take $$ also.. haiz.. then ate chicken rice lor.. after so long.. the other time wad packed de... and i found out one thing.. i'm growing fat already.. this cannot be happening...!!!

then ya like tt lor.. went to do project a while and went for lesson.. :S lesson ended on time.. and then rush to bt. but tt branch close.. sian totally.. so went back to sch lor.. after tt.. ate dinner... and went for practice... yup... flew back home early... :) tts a good thing tt is.. haha...

ok la.. y teared.. haiz.. i also dunoe y.. hope u are getting better.. dun be so sad.. really.. :) coz u still are someone... :) thanx for reading!! lolx..

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Can't believe i survived

26 hrs and slept a total of only 1 hr... cool things happened.. of coz.. :P like sleeping at the corner of a super busy junction... c ugly singaporeans quarreling... saw olympics marathon runners... stood for almost 7 hrs... and totally miss my bed...

woke up at 9pm... so ate my so called breakfast.. :X lolx.. went off to city hall with so many stuff.. :S not like i wanted them.. -.- then reach there slack a bit help a bit... then chat a lot... go buy stuff from 7-11 across the street... ya... cool had our heavy packs of stuff... ok it is practically food.. then wait lor.. so slept a bit... then so scary... 4am plus.. and it is like we are being thrown in areas so :S lor... OMG... ya... gotta wait till the race start.. tts 6am and we dun evennoe wad time it really start...

so well i was alone infront of the indian temple.. lolx.. the LTA's traffic contol unit is so noisy... haiz.. i sat there reading my scores... and then saw a roach... OMG... made it back into its stupid hole with ease.. lolx.. then decided to find my frens beside me.. so stupid la.. tts 1 hr already lor.. and i found out one thing we are 150m away... -.-

so there they were.. then slept at the corner of the busy traffic junction... like so early in the morning it is already busy.. -.- OMG... so slept there rite... inhaling allthe pollutants.. :X wahha... OMG... but cool la... sleep there.. :X u dun get to do it all the time lolx... woke up went shell station for the toliet.. :X and then went to station at my area again...

met the cisco guards.. so race began at 6am i go on duty at 7.15am.. lolx.. then 8 am the first runner OMG fast la.. -.- 38km mark leh.. 2 hrs and they still running super fast la.. piangz... inspiration.. lolx.. :X yup thenfrom then on a few ppl.. so my job is to check make sure they are alrite... rnners tt is.. then some stupid ppl i got my lorry inside i need to do work and blahblahblah... cannot stand it.. i also dunnoe wad to do lor.. so pissing... notices on the road in papers news all got wad.. u never listen... so hu can u blame? hu can u sue?? -.- sue the government or sue standard chartered which u think will cost u less defict?

well spoil my mood but still trying to keep up.. those ppl.. OMG.. so determined la.. such determination i doubt i have... 42.195km... a lot asked for deep heat which i dun have... :X so feedback time.. and also the indian temple the auntie also came out chitchat a while.. lolx.. so cool la...

funny things i met... a runner ran kind of fast la... then suddenly run to the side of the temple.. i was like OMG wad happened.. ran over and there he is urinating.. -.- saw catwoman saw spiderman.. OMG.. lame la.. u are suppose to run.. not parade in costume... and another one with a tyre dragging behind for wad?? dunnoe.. saw lots of ppl... gave encouragement and they are smiling... lolx.. cool... those hu really trained hard are like 3 hrs plus at 38km mark... then majority is at the 5th hr tt they cross the 38km mark... so ppl stop jus to strech... i'm like wow... u still have go energy.. :X maybe i should try one day.. next year?? lolx.. lets c lor.. need to train for NS..*nodnod*

o well after the event took a cab for the practice.. so rushing la.. omg.. haiz.. then ended the practice suppose to be performing at another place.. for another grp.. is like cannot reach there on time so forget it bah.. :X in the end met them and go jp for some fun before i head home... lolx... cool... reach home at abt 11pm... slept as early as i could abt 12 i think... and up for lesson the next day.. late for 10 minutes.. felt so bad... :X but still ok bah.. a day to remember... :D

OMG... i think i threw my face in jp.. :S sianz... die le la.. haiz..

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Sad guess so...

well how long have i not blog?? i also dunnoe... my days are running like so fast... and so busy i think i need to slow down my pace a bit... rather everything needs to slow down!!!

friday went to sch early.. did the lab test... etc... like oMG.. sian... thought i noe how to do already in the end... then things happen like i dunnoe really... after tt went to eat lunch or breakfast... yup... waited for them to settle down then start eating... ya and toking abt me... as usual..the way i eat the pasta... -.- like hello.. how i wanna eat ur problem??? it is not like u are in a hurry? are u...

so after tt went to LSCT level 6... do project etc... so yup... did quite a bit.. the presentation part.. haiz.. headache only...haiz... i seriously dun really understand and i'm trying to understand... i really dun have wad it takes to be a good student afterall...

then after tt went to play computer games coz change classroom... and as usual... changing ppl.. :S for good or for bad i dunnoe... y need to do such things? haiz.. nvm.. usual... so yup.. jus stay there slack eat lollipop.. haiz.. sleep also cannot sleep then go lesson... haiz... well.. i dunnoe seriously... somethings are meant to be this way... all those laws equations are giving me a headache.. OMG... sian... after lesson then went to clubhse... so boring.. trying to sleep also cannot sleep.. haiz... so well..

eat dinner... bought one in the end become 2 and paid for 2.. -.- wad the hell.. dying of the peanut gravy already.. -.- sts man... so well ate one pack go for practice after practice ate 1/4 of the other and threw it away...

yup first time went home so early after a practice then saw frens chitchat... suddenly everyone start asking.. -.- ok came home and saw things so -.- nvm la.. haiz... it is like tt... life's gotta go on...

today's gonna be a super day of trying to rest.. but need to help etc.. sian.. then sunday 3 full events to be involved in.. -.- like OMG... this cannot be happening... o well.. life's so busy...i wish these days are off... and i have time for myself... :X i wanna quit from this world.. maybe i should have gone for overseas attachment... really... now too late... 2 things clash on the same mth... like wth..can i not be involve? :(

i really need to cry... :'(

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