New Skin For A New Year!!!

Comment on the skin... lolx... :P

Anyway...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
in advance

I hope the new year... i have my wishes come true.. lolx.. (secret)

The Purity of Music

Oo.. last post of the year.. hmm.. lets recap..

first... on this very same day last year... i got my new phone.. and now it is a year old.. hmm... not hinting anything.. but this phone is still nice to use.. but sadly haven been able to discover its true ablities... nvm abt tt.. but during this time something happened... but at least it is not as bad as wad i thought...

this year jan till march... JJC.. hmm nice place but seriously jc's life not my cup of tea... *nod nod* frens seems to feel very bleak there... which i think if i'm there i would feel the same.. :X there is the camp... then the classes in triple science... o man.. u better not know wad's there to study... content overload.. lolx..

last day of feb.. the fruit of our labours from 2000 to 2004... sadly i did not do as i expected... and jumped so many points away from my initial target.. but it was predicted.. and i even dreamt abt it 9 mths be4 it happened?? sad rite... i noe it and i did not do anything to change it.. sad is an obvious feeling tt i had... but still i went to "sch" for fun.. and my frens were shocked to hear of my results.. as expected... i thought do i have this nerdy look??

then there after days are not as normal as it should be... so posting came.. another blow.. did not get into the course i wan... i was like sad another time.. a 2nd blow in a mth... yeah.. no one understand tt better than i do... the feeling is not nice at all... i was like O man.. totally sad.. y did i get into the 5th choice... chem and biomole engg... so i felt tt it would be a blessing in disguise.. thus i already perfectly knew tt i'll not get into biotech... but i still went to appeal..

days after tt were boring... everyday sleeping at home.. 12hrs a day... 7 days a week.. and for the next 1.5 mths days were like tt.. not to mention tt there is another blow.. a class chalet... =) and after tt was matriculation... and there my new life begin.. Poly... a time where i thought i could slack... but i was very wrong.. :X

first day went to sch with my fren... of coz started happy rite... but sadly.. the whole day was only maths.. it was totally boring... coz i felt tt we actually learnt it be4... lolx.. day after tt were ok.. with more frens were made at the end of 2 weeks... the most quiet period in poly... *nod* when term break comes the whole class was bonded quite together... but 2 clans of ppl la... lolx... at least i pulled these 2 fren together into the grp... hope they are fine even till now.. :)

o my b day was nothing special... ya..so sad rite.. but manage to get the 2 close frens to go out for like an hr... lolx.. but jus never fail... someone dun even make it de lor.. it is expected... esp this kind of events.... :X

projects tt kill were there obviously to kill.. but at least my grp did it well... :) lab reports etc.. lolx.. days were fun... those young days... lolx.. if time could turn back... i guess i'll choose back this course seriously...

then i joined band... after the term break... and met new ppl... :) fun... sem closes and then celebrated one sec sch fren's b day.. after tt day.. things change dramatically... was again... sad... then back in band was worse... those ppl... i have no words to describe... but jus one disgusted... thus even till now i still dun quite like being in the band... hope tt things are going better... but i guess i'll still close my heart to band... i do wad i wan.. i play how i wanna play... if u can't accept tt then sorry... coz u are not accepting a fren hu is tt way... :) ya the angry part... be4 tt day.. i knew nuts.. after tt day... i know how nice those ppl were... be4 2 weeks be4 the concert i was on the verge to jus dun play for the concert... coz i think y should i care when those ppl dun even care... but after much consideration... i played for the concert... coz i felt tt if i go i let 2 ppl down... first the conductor 2nd my sec sch fren... last is myself... at least after the concert.. things changes... hopefully it is for the better...

after concert more things happening.. i realise one thing.. i'm so hated by my classmates... was it jealousy for GPA or was it jus me?? thus my policy... if u are my fren accept me as hu i m... coz i did not reject u for hu u are... if u are good or bad... u wanna be my fren tt the simplest respect u have to give... i threw myself into a problem so big... and almost got exposed?? or i would say exposed already... so wadever it is.. i'm jus troubled...

this was already december... days are running fast.. to end the year... jus as it is going to happen... 2 things happened again... a mistake tt causes things to repeat history... and a fren tt stop toking to me.. i can't figure out.. was it my mistake or wad?? i haven done anything wrong by jus smsing... u noe it urself.. if u read this... then say wad's wrong... i'm so innocently misunderstood??

christmas and teh week after tt dad's around... and thus family comes first here... so happened tt everything clashes... and i'm so unhappy over it.. and ppl involved jus dun make things simpler..

at least i still went back to sch.. to study with my frens and i know tt i haven been studying much... but nevertheless the test is the big thing after newyear.. :( and it is not going to change it's date..

i was very sick for 3 times this year... this is bad.. jan once.. june once (which i was so sad over).. and dec another time... o i recalled be4 concert another time.. so it is a total of 4 times???

i was feeling very terrible for like 9 times at least... for various events... tt totally shock my world... jus like 9 earthquakes?? as big as the earthquake felt by those last year 26th dec... lolx..

but on a happier note... i met a lot of frens... i mean lots.. :) and not to mention good frens... but sadly badies are also quite a handful... i had a lot of happy times.. like the class chalets.. which i wish i had another one... both sec sch and poly.. lolx... but somethings are unforgetable.. like the wound tt was slashed by those in the oct event... which made me so angry and sad... i think even if those masterminds come say sorry.. it doesn't help a bit... backstabbers... it is jus like a wound no matter how much it heal it will still have the mark there... and yes it is the first of such a kind... and of coz i will not forget it so easily... but everytime i thought of it... i'll be angry... like now... the kind of ppl jus disgust me... totally... if i tell my frens abt it i dun think they would believe tt such a thing happen to me... so jus watch it u guys around them... u may never noe when would be ur turn to be like tt...

o suppose to be happy.. lolx.. so hmm... i learnt some things in life.. ignorance is a bliss... most of the time... it is better not to know something then to know something... i've also learnt tt i should speak my mind... o and dun fight with xiao ren... lolx.. like those *ahem ahem* in the oct event... it jus change teh image i have abt the band... but some involved are good tts of coz i noe... o and i found out one thing.. i hate those gulity faces... it jus makes me remember some things... i think like my quote of the year.. things happen for a cause.. be it good or bad... it is telling u something... something tt u have to inspect closer...

anyway enough of my stupid recap... lolx... hope u did the same too... and of coz... new year ahead u noe new year resolutions... i think i'll not be blogging abt my new year resolutions... lolx... coz i think it seems useless... know urself can le.. if cannot make it then dun make it.. lolx...

Happy New Year!!! to those reading this... and of coz... keep it to urself... i dun understand y should my blog become an issue to tok abt.. :X lolx..

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How many days have i not blogged??

first... i would wanna say... does going out with family is considered a sin??
second... when u forget something does it mean it is not thoughtful??
third... wad does not toking to another person mean??? cold treatment??
fourth... izit meeting someone so difficult?? or jus the problem lies with me??
fifth... i think i'm far too sensitive.. m i not???
prove me wrong for all 5 of them... if u're tt good..

thursday nothing much... u noe tong ji.. so ya at home lor.. and not feeling well... also dunnoe y... jus felt veyr terrible.. food also can't eat much.. so practically the whole day was doing nothing..

friday... as expected the huhu come back... which spoils every plan i have.. a day of cleaning bit also lor.. wad else... and again.. did not eat much... not feeling well again..

saturday... christmas eve... at home do nothing much also lor... suppose to celebrate go countdown or something.. in the end... plans changed... so it is like wad the hell... but went out at 8 plus i think.. walk till 10 in jp.. how nice rite.. and jus sit through the nite doing absolutely nothing... i guess.. or not to anything i remember... o of coz usual.. sending of greetings... and so happy sleep at home and woah... rain lor.. so nice.. make my sleep so shuang... wahhaa..

sunday... Christmas.. did nothing much in the morning... early afternoon went west mall... shop shop.. bought my racket at last... christmas present i guess.. next stop orchard... first time... on a public holiday.. lolx.. did not manage to c my fren... ask to go to taka.. and they walk walk back to shaw hse liao.. sian lor.. then drive home.. :( at home also doing nothing much lor... anyway at orchard also nothing much lor.. wad u expect??

monday?? jus as boring... morning at home.. afternoon at home.. evening went to east coast for dinner.. and guess wad.. my dad jus spoil the evening lor.. no crab so?? nvm.. at least we still had our dinner...

guess tml also nothing much... but jus these days... not feeling well.. sick... and now the old sickness comes back again... one leads to another.. nice rite?? jus like the problem now... one lead to another... ok so wad does it show?? my body system reflects my interaction with others??

i dun wanna tok much... if u are one of those hu is a factor... u noe better... and u should noe wad i'm toking abt... wadever the case... i dun wish some things to repeat.. coz i think the history is repeating itself and it is an on going process... which u noe wad... i think will come true... and so... to prevent it... i dunnoe wad to do... since smses are such evil stuff... i think i shall... jus stop smsing then... save $$ and since i dun sms... i think i should off my phone... coz besides sms... call??? hmm... hse phone lor... moreover my smses are always very irritating to others... izit it?? i think so..

O i was jus thiniking... y i need a phone when no one calls me for urgent matter besides my family?? no one sms me when i sms them?? so i think it shall start from today... or tt matter to nite... after to nite.. it is off totally... rite?? suppose till i have to mood to on it again... maybe only everyday 8am is something i look forward to.. coz my horoscope for the day come at tt time... besides tt... do i need to have such a power consuming device tt i walk sleep run jump with?? NO..

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Yesterday!!!

yesterday.. woke up at like 7 i think.. then in friendster adding frens.. lolx... till abt 8 plus.. went to shower... after shower... was like taking my things and all.. walk to the bus stop.. lolx... the walk under the sun was nice... and warm... haha...

took 172 to cck... reach there at almost 10 lor.. then found out tt the meeting time is 10.45.. so lucky got a fren there liao.. sit at mac eat "breakfast" milo again.. and apple pie again.. i jus ate it the day be4... ok nvm.. i haven blog it so its ok.... sit there tok a bit... etc.. wait for frens.. lolx.. so wait lor.. then after tt at abt 10.30.. went to kbox but not open yet.. so arcard.. lolx.. play.. my bishi bashi.. haiz.. did not play so sian.. this reminds me of kok howe's tapz card.. :X after tt went to the kbox.. sing.. wahaha.. oldies.. nice nice.. at least i noe how to sing a few.. rather then the pop... need to sight-read chinese... sight read chinese.. can u believe it?? o man... kill brain cells... stupid chinese.. :X

had lots of fun seriously... wahaha... then after tt was the last song.. my heart will go on... everyone went a bit off?? :X wahhaa... "choir" t so how dun suit... :X lolx.. nvm.. but still it was very fun lor... anyhow sing.. whaha.. after kbox was $$ time... haha.. and then.. after tt we went to play pool!!!

o dun tok abt it.. pool is nice.. seriously.. but haiz.. i think play too long liao.. :X abt 4 hrs?? from abt 2 to almost 6... :X the table charge is so exp.. haiz.. wad to do.. wanna play is like tt one... but m i playing too slowly?? :X haiz... i think they are fast serious... maybe can't concentrate well.. :X but overall i think we played too long... after tt everyone is like half dead?? ok no concentration... then went for dinner... i'm suppose hungry.. but after some time not liao.. anywya mum cooked.. so gotta go home eat.. after tt we were toking abt so many things... aiyo... so blur one... i think i'm getting retarede these days.. nvm... but it is a bad sign... had wad they called conselling session... -_-" nothing offensive... dun worry... haha... but i jus dun get somethings... hmm.. nvm.. like i say i'm getting retarded these days. so very normal lor.. not to get anything.. but seriously... i'm also a bit off.. :X coz maybe play too much pool... next time gotta limit lor... lolx.. if not play so long.. but i think play 9ft nicer than 8... :X ok i think la.. :X lolx.. at least i learnt some new things.. like placing... however... i wasn't able to do some techinques.. i dunnoe y leh.. maybe not skillful after all.. but seriously... luck is not on my side too... haiz... so guess fated la.. like they say... beginner's luck...

then too late liao.. so no choice.. my fren can't go back to malaysia.. so i hse him for a nite.. lolx... c i'm so good... :X no la... but i dun mind so hse him for a nite.. called mum and she agree.. so good... haha.. then nothing much lor.. chat to make sure the christmas thingy got some one working on.. then after tt.. sleep... too tired.. :X singing already use a lot of energy liao.. pool concentration.. then haiz... headache... haha... still slept quite late lor...

mmorning woke up with so much ache over the body... and the first sign of going to be real sick.. :X and true enough... actually wanna go out de... but then.. condition's getting worse... to no choice.. cancelled the trip out... then liting's b day summore they going singing again.. haiz.. miss the fun man... :X wanted to go.. but already went singing yesterday.. i need some rest rite?? :X lolx..then this stupid illness.. haiz... so sent my fren off.. then went home to sleep... no air con.. and use 3 blankets to warm my self??? after a few minutes fell asleep... haiz.. kind of suspect is the food i ate yesterday... but my fren seems ok.. dunnoe leh. maybe plus not enough water.. so like tt lor.. :X now a bit better... i think later going to sleep again.. haiz.. suppose to be studying de lor... o man.. nvm...

blog abt tuesday later?? i guess...

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Blog another day...

too tired to blog... there are so many things to say.. too little time?? ok la.. coz wanna sleep already.. in general... had lots of fun today... wahhaa.... how come i went out i dun remember... anyway.. it is a clique outing i guess... haha.. but ok next blog then say la... lolx... then kbox pool and toking session... wahaha... ok la... nitez... o and HAPPY BIRTHDAY LITING!!!!

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My Unpredictable Day?? :X

today's kind of fun.. started my day well... at least manage to c my dad off... be4 i go to sch... ok i was late... seriosuly late... for abt 30 plus minutes?? :X lolx.. ICBE lecture... lolx.. then after tt got a break ate fan choy again... did i sign a contract with the auntie to eat fan choy every morning for at least one break?? :X then continue the lecture... it is something new.. but sounds very theoritical... i kind of dun understand.. :X gotta wait for the practice questions where numbers are involve.. :X skip the last 2 hrs after lunch... coz have a meeting for band.. lolx.. o i told the teacher abt it already.. lolx... so got permission to leave.. :X went to band room... kind of surpirse to c the number of ppl there... dun really noe wad's going on so kept quiet and sat one side..

they went down to take lunch coz some haven take.. so i also went down for a drink... kind of crap a little.. haiz.. i think my social skills is bad.. nvm... kind of added a lot more ppl in my circle of frens.. lolx... interesting... hmm... at least now if i go back band i dun only have most frens in the front row.. lolx... after tt went up to the club hse.. in the music room we were told tt it is an interview... :X

so we went one by one of coz... while they are interviewing.. we were having a dry swim session... lolx... kind of fun.. ease the tension a bit... i was like OMG interview... seems dun have a mental prepration for it lor.. but ok la.. even if i'm prepared i'll jus tok crap... so be4 i went in game one set.. lolx.. so the thing happened.. and tok crap again.. as usual... aiya.. like i say social skills got problem.. haiz.. nvm.. i really hope tt i'm not even up for any position... hopefully not man... if not i think going to band is passion or duty??

after tt stayed in the room for a while more... and then.. lolx... went to meet my frens.. haiz.. ps weishu.. :X sorry... then they were still undecisive.. so i was like go play pool!!! haha.. and at last they agreed... haiz.. sorry shin... kind of left u out today.. :X had fun... my pool skills still suck!! seriously.. even after one day.. :( my concentration level also very low today... but at least i had fun... can't believe i can jump the cue ball in first be4 the strip one goes in.. o no!!! haiz... been pondering over something...

would u give up ur interest becoz of some thing had happened?? or would u go find back ur inspiration for ur interest again??? would u say becoz of this incident i've lost interest?? haiz.. but if next time go i feel tt i should get less ppl to go.. so i can concentrate.. i felt tt some activity was a waste of time.. i gained nothing.. did nothing productive... if i've learnt something like the pool session today... i wouldn't mind going for more... :) or izit becoz of a person's influence?? will i become very GL if i jus do like wad ben did?? :X o man.. this is bad... seriously... haiz... wad to do.. this is only one part of the problem.. there are more.... but seems tt this is the worse one...

gotta study more now.. OBC...ICBE... this 2 put together = death!!! be prepared to c me in LCK chalet soon... haiz... haven got time to change my blog a bit... coz mars is not in retro already... :X haiz...

wad a day... but there are extremes to it... :) not to say the usual suanning... :X lolx...

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Dream Interpreted??? :X

"btw can someone interpret this dream of mine?? u chase someone... it is a very high tech chasing.. nvm.. forget the details.. then u manage to catch this guy.. jus like a police.. lame.. ok.. u want something from him... something.. but if i recalled correctly it is a diamond... -_-" but he throw it over the fence and u saw it... then after some talking u decided to let the man off... u jump over the fence to get the "diamond" and found tt it is fake.. or at least it is not a crystal clear diamond... i noe it is lame... after tt i woke up up..." --- adapted from the last nov post i think...

First lets tok abt the chase...Dreaming that you are chasing someone means that you are attempting to overcome a difficult goal or task. You may also be expressing some aggressive feelings toward others. guess it is true... the attempt to overcome a difficult goal or task... it is more like a problem... :X lolx... and expressing some aggressive feelings.. not tt much applicable...

Police - Dreaming that you are a police officer, represents your own sense of morality and conscience. The dream may serve to guide you down a straight path.
Seeing or dreaming that you are a police officer chasing a felon indicates that your naughty and more devious side is in conflict with your moral standards.

ya i think the first part is true.. coz be4 i selpt i told myself tt i need this dream to clear a problem... hmmm... ok nvm... then the next part is quite true lor... felon = badies... in conflict c tt... ya it is very complicated.. :X

Fence - Seeing a fence in your dream means an obstacle or barrier that may be standing on your path. You may feel confined and restricted in expressing yourself. Are you feeling fenced in? Alternatively, it may symbolize a need for privacy. You may want to shut off the rest of the world. Dreaming that you are climbing to the top of a fence indicates success.

ya the obstacle part is ya... true though... and of coz confined and restricted in expressing myself... and true i need to shutoff from the world... o i did climb in the dream.. but cannot cross coz got some wires of wad above... so cannot cross... but success?? hmm.. i think not...

Car
Dreaming that you are driving a car means your ambition, your drive and your ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another. Consider how smooth or rough the car ride is. Whether you are driving the car or a passenger, is indicative of of your active role or passive role in your life.
Flying machine
Seeing a flying machine in your dream, foretells of steady satisfactory progress in your future endeavors.

i think it is more of one stage of life to the other... it is quite ok la the journey... mean active role in life??? coz driver??

Seeing diamonds in your dream means the wholeness of the Self. You may be finding clarity in matters that have been clouding you. It may also point to your unchanging or unyielding nature. Alternatively, it represents vanity and conceit. You may be distancing yourself from others.

Diamond ok.. put it this way fake diamond is everything opposite?? huh?? i dun get it.. when u put things together...

Trying to overcome your own sense of morality and conscience.. when your naughty and more devious side is in conflict with your moral standards... to overcome obstacle, shut off from the world and a need for privacy is all unsuccessful, as i can't climb over?? ability to navigate from one stage of your life to another is so-so.. and always active for a steady satisfactory progress in your future endeavors.. Diamond.. fake diamond = fake wholeness of the self.. not able to find clarity in matter tt cloud me.. distance myself and unchanging and unyielding nature remains.. lastly, the dream may serve to guide you down a straight path...

o so if diamond = my self... and it was being stolen... so i went to catch the felon to get it back.. means the travelling takes time and smooth... so means i trying to catch the felon with a conflict within me?? caught the guy demending it back, my self.. he finds tt it is worthless and threw it... out of the fence = out of privacy... i expose myself to the outside world to search back for my self?? tt is unclear and fake??

Erm... so now wad is it tt it is trying to show??

my question is still unanswered... i guess... o man... can this dream be reliable?? for wad i infer... :X o btw... my ss skills is horrible... so can say tt it is totally not true?? but to some extent it is true?? wad m i toking?? argh... nvm... so at least i interpeted my dream.. :X which in the end turns out to nothing at all related to my question??? it is more like telling me y i come out to have this problem... :X o man.. wad it this.. :X

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Lots gone through

wednesday... spiking i think spelled like this.. for Vball... almost sprain my hand again.. nvm... wrong technique la... if not will almost de meh?? but all i noe is my ankle... will be gone in few days... :X all the jumping... i jus noe i'm not a good at looking at the ball jump at the rite time and hit... o man.. y i can;t i think i need more training... haiz... this is bad..

thursday... usual mood swing again... when will is go i dunnoe noe.. :X but thursday been a bad day... morning noon and afternoon... so many things happening.... argh... i seriously think tt my lab teacher is the worse.. :X for no particular reason being scolded suan and also yalled by me... wad's more my frens are affected by it... wad's seriously going on Jasper!!! i dunnoe!!! went to band... not tt good... mood's not there... i took the solos at last... but screw it.. nvm.. it is malu enough... i admit i'm not a good player... went home... rush my report... in 2 hrs i think or plus... i did it alone?? of coz with my 2 sister frantically hitting the keyboard playing wad the heck.. maple story... it was a game i played through my O levels... and cause such a good result.. o nvm... so rush finihs the report sent it to my fren... only the next day tt i found out tt i got one stupid spelling mistake... and lots of stupid answers... my brain's not functioning properly...

friday... woke up early... ya haven been so early be4... since the sem start.. :X reach sch early.. coz got lab test la... i was predicting some stupid compund like aldehyde or ketone.. and true enough my 6th sense is correct... my prediction was working out the friday be4... haiz... life is so stupid.. nvm... but at least i got the compund i wanted and the correct results execpt the molecular weight... tt one nvm... i was like testing to check if it was rite... but i noe it is wrong liao so heck la... but i jus can't stand some ppl proclaiming he's rite and i'm wrong so loudly... it reflects so bad abt u and my lack of knowledge?? nvm... a proud peacock always show his butt amongst the fan of feathers.. and we say nice!!! o man... chim nvm... after tt i went off to jp with my closest fren... lolx... shop for rackets... lolx.. o of coz the feeling is horrible when u c something u wan.. and u can't buy... it is true.. but i'm kind of use to it?? coz i always got no $$ to buy things de lor... actually wanted to get this fren along but aiya... maybe jus fated not to c my msg n miss call... by the time she msg back she's home... haiz.. wenthome sleep.. till evening out again?? for my younger sister's concert... kind of quite well done execpt tt the balance a bit off... nvm... her concert is so much well done than mine... :X msg quite a few ppl... at the same time... suddenly.. but at least i'm not blur of saying the wrong things to the wrong person.. :X lolx...

o lets tok abt today.. wadever la.. Sat... went to sch super early on a sat.. 8am for this sw make-up... stupid but kind of fun... lolx... saw so many of my frens.. lolx... rare chance to c so many.. lolx.. then went to mac... when other ppl took the back gate there.. my class went through the front... but still we made it to mac.. lolx... alive... after tt went to clementi sports complex... for our badminton.. lolx.. some how my mood jump again... haiz... wad the heck... nvm... jus sudden;y some factors piss me off... obviously i'm not very happy... but still it's ok... jus felt tt a bit waste of time... :X if it was really very eventful.. i would have register it in my brain... as eventful.. :X but anyway.. my ankle hurts... haven been hurt since quite some time ago... guess gotta strengthen my ankle tendons or at least u noe make it less prone to sprain... haiz...

suppose tohave a post concert bbq... but i've got my both parents home... so gotta go back... thus my frens and i went to eat... had a lot of toking... gossiping?? :X tts bad.... and then we took mrt... and at home i slept again... haha... jus like a pig sia.. :X wad to do... i'm growing fat... :X i gotta slim down.. u think i should go to mary chia jean yip?? o man.. crap.. nvm... i think i gotta work a bit on my running speed... to lose more fats when i run.. o and of coz... tone up... arhg... buliding muscles is easy.. toning.. is the worse part.. :( i'm been like tt for a long time.. i dun wan it to be.. :X gotta slim down.. tone up.. hmm.. new motto?? for next year?? :X haiz.. but seems tt every year is the same... :X but i thin i'll go back to old ways... so it is back to square one... :X sometimes i wonder y some things happen... :X or y some things are added into my life.. to make it more complex... jus like equations... haiz... wad's more i'm a failure...

i'm not good in music... not good in sports... studies... is jus so-so... social relations bad... so how??? i noe nothing.. slow ppl by 3 seconds when others jus lag by 1 thousandth of a sec?? o.. my life's not good izit not?? or m i jus looking at it in a very complex manner... argh!!! nvm... some things are best left unanswered... some seriously i think others' secrets are kept but i expose my own... tts stupid isn't it?? stupid ppl are like tt... but i would not say i can seal my mouth fully over everything... :X i felt love and not love i felt angry but not angry.. i felt hate but not hate... so wad is it?? argh... ok i'm jus looking at life in a too profound way tt i can't comprehen it myself... how spastic can i be??

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Mood Swing

ok i admit i have mood swing these days... somehow... :X i also dunnoe y... it is very drastic lor... the range... i can jus fly over the moon.. or dig deep into the fury core of the Earth... and it can jus be in the matter of seconds??? :X tt terrible... i can jus be happy and laugh all my way through.. or jus suddenly shout at something which i noe is always like tt... :X so gotta say sorry.. :X

jus like yesterday... :X morning was nice till something happened... but still like i say laugh it off.. then EDCA test was stressful... it was like a race of the heartbest... which minute is the fastest.. :X it was 11.40 and i encounter some problem... o not to mention.. after so many idiotic fatal error... i dunnoe how it occur.. :X at 11.40 called for help.. the teacher was so slow in action... i thought 12 was the due time... :X ok end time of the exam!! so i was like teacher i think later then change lor... i still got a lot haven do.. :X then he was like 12.20 end wad... my fren and i were like phew... there is stil time.. :X

after tt went to canteen 5... for lunch.. saw my fren.. lolx.. how nice... after some time.. bought my fren a drink coz kind of ruin his.. so.. ya.. then after tt went to do work... ya tutorial... lolx... so stupid... we did measure our blood pressure... i'm unhealthy... ok.. at tt time.. coz i'm laugh and all.. it takes some time to cool down.. then some how feel like sleeping... and then after tt the other thing occur.. and i shouted.. :X o man... seriously.. dunnoe y i shout.. after tt everyone was like.. :X keeping their mouths shut i think... :X sorry la fren...

after lesson went to the study area to let time go.. saw my sec sch frens again.. lolx... haiz.. these days got a feel for lolipops... dunnoe y.. :X went in no cola.. so ask the auntie.. she say pour out and find lor... haha i found 2 so buy them both.. :) ate one.. unwillingly.. k la.. it was very willingly gave my fren the other... sat there toking and toking... lolx... then some stupid joke occur becoz of my bad usage of chinese.. i think i'll communicate more in English... after tt went to buy a drink... finish went to buy chocolate to eat... o man.. i think i spend too much.. :X but jus ya... no choice.. went u got the feeling of eating some things... :X lolx.. o was like laughing all the way to the lt38... tts like so super far... lolx..

in the lt. i thin only my class so noisy sia.. laughing so loudly... toking also veyr loudly.. :X lolx... then i was like.. erm.. i think we are too loud... my fren was like shouting.. are we?? then he tone down.. :X lolx... its ok la... at least we were quite quiet through the thing... all i noe is tt when the thing going to end.. turn my head and saw my classmate behind sleeping.. :X then i look at others.. all eyes open.. not wide... but still at least it is open and listening... spotted only a few sleeping.. :X haiz.. my class... guess it the only unique class with so many kind of ppl around... lolx.. sleep in lecture... tok and laugh veyr loud one... suan ren number 1... even teacher also cannot fang guo.. :X o man.. my class is terrible.. but i like.. not to mention i always kanna suan.. o and somehow my blog suddenly become the star awards thingy... all the crap.. -_-" lolx..

haiz.. today's a new day... o man.. not chicken little again.. :X

anyway today got cats adn SW... hope the sun show some mercy on me.. :X lolx... ok then..

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Secrets.. My blog's not secret anymore i guess... :X

o man... these days my mood has been up and down.. and it is very sudden.. jus happen anytime of the day.. nvm... some small things tt i dun usuall be pissed off jus suddenly matters a lot.. -_-"ok nvm..

after some ok long long time.. i think wad my best fren said was true.. i keep others ppl's secrets and blurt out my own.. :X tt so stupid of me rite.. ok nvm... some stupid ppl like me will be telling out his own secrets?? argh.. nvm... tt the spastic once... but seriously wad are secrets?? to wad extend are secrets known as secrets?? ok i jus noe mine is kind of can say supressed feeling abt everything.. ok they had better not be out... not a bit i guess... nvm... of coz some are good some are not tt good.. :X

ok lets tok abt today... mus say one thing.. the entries written here is not suppose to be so openly tok abt lor... also dunnoe y... some ppl jus look and start toking.. wad star awards?? ar nvm... it is jus a recount of wad happened ok... so dun get all worked up when u think i'm referring to u... so wad if it was u??? i dun care wad happened yesterday... i jus noe tt tml is not the same as yesterday... and pls lor... only bad things will be said out aloud... good things are kept like treasure in the heart lor... so it is up to u to infer wad i said... but seriously this is suppose to be a private blog... if not i would have more links than tt... ok nvm... there is no such thing called private in the world... even the most private moment in life will have some pest around to destroy ur private...

today skip this 2 boring hrs of lecture... went there ask teacher when he's marking attendence... and then his reply.. 3/4 of the class later.. so jus walk out of class heck care... should have jus ask liao then walk off... easier.. if not waste time there sia... 15 minutes of precious time to do work u noe... so wad temperature so wad mass balance?? i would not say it would be easy.. but jus few slides tt i can read in 5 minutes and understand not fully.. but at least i learn some be4.. rather than sitting there wasting my 2 precious hrs.. o nvm.. wad's worse after tt 2 hrs.. went up the hill again for tutorial.. saw him.. so jus tell him wad we did where we go lor.. should have jus say i was stuck at the toilet bowl and my frens were helping me get out of it lor... seriously should have done tt lor..

after tt was the tutorial... ate my last of the lolipop tt i have... i think if i still have the feel for more than buy lor.. :X went for maths... had lots of things to do man.. and i was so can't be bothered with written tutorials till now.. start rushing like mad when everyone is a full chapter ahead of me.. :(

then went to meet my favorite tuition teacher... to solve some small problem.. ok of coz.. when it was solve u'll say it is small.. when it was not it will be big.. :X ya back to big.. i got a big problem haven solve.. my dream?? :X tt i think i noe a bit liao.. when i fully comprehen then i write it??lolx... ok jus to say more of like lazy to check it properly... so still need time.. and time indeed.. :X

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How Nice...

friday... woke up bathe and decided to mix gel with wax.. guess i over did it.. it looks so gel than wax... :( went to sch feeling so blue... :X becoz of the hair.. o man... nvm..

took a train and then decided to take a cab to sch.. coz i'm running late... i gotta be in sch by 9 am.. if not minus marks?? (it is so childish) thinking of tt minus marks.. took a cab and it cost $$5.20... this is stupid.. :X

got there abt 3 minutes late i think... so continue with the long "short" briefing...
did those test... those dunnoe wad test.. with the harmful organic compounds.. and seriously u noe it is harmful and u went to smell them?? ya tts wad i was partly doing.. :X if u can smell the compound.. for the next weeks test u are power!!! 4% is all urs.. lolx... but u think it is possible my nose got prob de.. nvm.. so we did everything.. the smell of the lab is getting worse and worse...

windows opened.. lucky a cool day so not tt bad.. :X did this tollen test.. so interesting... with ethenal and heating... there would be a silver coat on the inside surface... i did it well.. haha.. after much cleaning for a "very clean testube" if not the test would not go well.. :X suppose not go well.. :X

o wish me luck for the test man.. it would be tough.. coz i think i'll be having a very stupid compound to identify.. :X

ate lunch at SIM... then went to do some work while waiting for my frens... did the lab sheet... and feeling a slight fever... guess i smell too much of the harmful compounds.. this also happened theother time.. the first lab.. argh.. organic compounds are bad for health!!! *agree*

after those em3 were release.. went to causeway point to walk walk.. lolx... so many things to c.. badminton racket, clothes, bags?? and last but not least.... soft toys!!! haha... i wana get a soft toy.. if not my room looks so dull.. my pst soft toys are kept somewhere... and they better not be touch i guess.. dusty already.. :X gotta wash them one day...

o saw some badminton racket.. quite nice.. but the price is also very nice... -_-" waiting for ATM to come back... :X lolx... hopefully can get something nice..

o then stupidly take a stupid bus called 178 home.. after asking a suppose noe-it-all-bus-routes person.. in the end.. at peak hr... reach boon lay late.. and the journey was 1 hr and 18 minutes.. o man.. ass pain!!! monday watch it... went to jp to walk again... haiz.. so envious tt my fren got his racket.. :( wad abt me??? hmm.. i wonder when is my time to get one.. ATM!!! if they are tt good.. hopefully:X

sowent home caught the 9pm show.. lolx.. then went online do a bit of things.. and off i go to bed.. tts like 12-1 i guess. dun remember.. :X

sat woke up touch my lappy for a while.. and bathe.. lolx.. change up and make hair again.. use less gel this time... the result is worse.. haiz.. guess i should go for visit the hairstylist again?? or thinking of another style to wax.. or jus get another super strong wax?? o nvm... c how things go.. guess monday no wax no gel i think... :X

went for band with jus a piece of bread and 3 bits of hello panda in my tummy?? :X lolx... reach there jus on time.. ok almost la.. on the dot.. late a bit.. caught my fren into band.. lolx.. 1 in i guess... i'll get more... :P Pull... if i have the magetism.. :X wahaha.. :P

anyway.. band was fun.. laughters etc... haha... the pieces played today were nice.. simple and melodious but yet such a simpel piece.. i still miss parts.. lost count.. can't sight-read well.. :X sad man.. but ok la.. generally not too bad i guess.. :X but today's attendence is erm... no comments... like wad felicia told me.. expect very few ppl.. but i think it is a lot better than few today...

most solos threw again.. wahaha... hmm.. jus dun wanna take them... :X i mean though i can play not perfect.. but i still think let my fren do it.. :) his sight-reading a lot better than mine... esp counting.. :X haha...

wanted to say bye to my fren.. but disappeared.. somehow.. :X o man... after band took 174... to jp.. went there walk walk.. haha.. while waiting for my younger sis... look for badminton racket again.. wahaha...

found 4 to choose from.. lolx.. gotta rank them and ask ATM.. :X wahaha.. hopefully get the first 2.. :X lolx.. o then younger sis came.. lolx.. went to eat dinner.. then of coz tok tok la...

then went let her c the badminto rackets after tt.. lolx.. she say not too bad.. haha.. but got 4.. price range sia.. :X so nvm.. final decision ATM... o ATM liek atmosphere sia.. :X nvm...

went home and did some MOL.. and here i'm typing.. :X o tml younger sis is having a performance at paragon.. dunnoe if i should go.. :X lolx.. anywa tts tml.. ok la.. so long sure read till u die de.. :P o hu's reading?? scan through to check dun have ur name can liao la... :X.. joking... i dun tok bad things abt ppl.. unless it is very veyr grave.. :X lolx...

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ok lets blog abt today...

first woke up... and think i got out from the wrong side of the bed... bathe.. then dry hair.. get prepared then wax hair.. waxing is the world more irritating process tt one has to go through... raise ur hands high... making a nice style for ur hair... do and redo... jus so irritating lor.. and time consuming.. argh!!! make me late for lesson... :(

took a bus to sch.. can u believe it... it was i think abt 7.30 tt i hop on the bus.. sure late tt kidn lor.. heck anyway... still i got there abt 15 minutes late.. :X lolx.. how nice rite... maths.. i totally forgot wad i studied.. sian.. totally.. :X

then chong's lesson reading book all the way.. very tired lor... serious.. his voice making ppl sleep?? coz i look up.. turn head.. ppl like not paying attention.. o me too.. so haha.. no complains abt it.. :X lolx...

OBC ok not too bad i would say... at least i think i listen in his lecture... better then.. *ahem ahem* then again... too many terms to remember.. o man.. i'll die.. i haven been studying the whole sem.. till now.. can i change my future?? :X future's in ur hands... lolx..

lunch... a long 2 hrs.. and i found out tt my blog is not as private as wad i thought it would be... some ppl jus dun give the add better.. big mouth tell everyone.. :X but then again.. it shows tt the class care rite?? :X o how sweet.... -_-" no comments on tt.. lolx.. but seriously i think too many ppl get to noe of my blog.. y... i dun understand.. :( suddenly pop out of no where... :X

o then i better blog abt this too.. since at least i noe some of them reading... pls la.. study my mood first be4 trying to attempt and suan ok... some ppl jus cannot control... moreover.. the more u say wanna control.. the more u wouldn't jus as the logic goes.. the more u say u going to jump the more u will not... is those quiet ppl that will go forward with it.. :X

but as expected.... things are always not as wad i wanted.. so nvm.. use to it... some times jus piss with some ppl.. seriously... not tt i wanna say anything bad... nor would it be good...

went for EDCA.. extra lesson la.. not make up.. lolx.. manage to finish all the ex.. hopefully the test would be easy.. but.. of coz even with the teacher resure us tt it will be easy.. however.. u think teacher's words can be believed?? i seriously wonder... at least the teacher is nice.. haha manage to have some small tok.. haha.. later ppl will say things again.. dunnoe hu lor.. they noe themselves... wad's wrong with talking with teachers?? they are also humans.. y can't we jus make frens?? of coz dun cross the line though...

then after tt nothing much lor... go home.. lolx... but seriously.. i'm blur at some things ok.. and dun make use of it to shoot me.. :( and when i'm serious i will be... dun give crap when i'm serious...

then tok abt friendster... jus gave a testimonial to my IS fren.. suddenly kanna shoot sia... literally shoot ok... o man.. maybe i should not have given tt testimonial... c la.. dun wanted trouble?? but at least they are warmly welcomed.. :X wahaha...

tml gotta hand up the report... o sorry nicer word.. assessment.. :X how nice can it be?? o anyway gott complain too...

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Introduction
background or theory
do not follow the lab manual word for word
keep it SHORT!!!
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defination of short:
1. Having little length; not long. (adapted form dictionary.com)

hello short is tt meaning!!! introduction of a lab report is short... but so happen tt the short.. is 4 to 5 pages long??? to the reference of the teacher... o man... but sadly my short is only like not even half a page?? can u believe it...

more... MUST BE WORD PROCESSED. LAB REPORTS MUST BE ORGANISED IN NEAT, EASY TO READ FORMAT WITH CLEAR SECTIONS.

no argument for word process = neat?? most of the time..

organised and easy to read format!!! u noe procedure is suppose to be short and precise... hu the hell would give u one long passage of words and call u to follow?? with bombarstic vocab?? hello... it is a report... and procedures u expect essay/compo writing?? with big big killing vocab?? report make it so complicated for wad??? u tell me... use such big words for?? killing ppl??? o man... using those words jus make a simple piece of work more complicated... tts wad i think... a report should be clear of wad it is trying to say.. usage of english keep it simple la... OMG... so complicated for wad?? it is not english exam where u need to use those words...

wadever it is... thisteacher is going to stay.. and i'll have to c him 4 days! a week.. can u imagine?? even on friday?? and monday?? start the weekday with a blue... start the weekends with a spoiler.. how m i going to survive?? :X

forget abt it.. heck care... jus live though unharm.. and i'll really be greatful..

o i hope sat come fast.. but i also hope it doesn't too.. :X how contradicting.. :X lolx.. nvm.. for those hu dun understand its ok.. :) o dun remind me.. tml gotta c him again.. for 3 full hrs?? and he always use all 3 full hrs.. i dunnoe y... :X lolx.. lab coat!! haha.. i gotta remember.. :)

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haha.. sian

o did not update for few days... mus say... blogger not good lor... always cannot access.. or was it my net? :X iwonder.. but wadever it was... didn'tblog for a few days lor.. so sian...

tuesday was kind of a bit late for lesson?? ya.. jus a bit.. i think tml will be the same.. or worse.. nvm... maths was ok lor.. then edca.. the teacher teach things fast lor... i cannot catch... for once.. :X bu it is like tt lor wad to do.. later the teacher pissed off again.. so sian de lor.. suddenly found out got extra lesson on thursday... totally -_-" sian...

went to canteen 3 to eat lunch... and then o my god... we were all mugging the stupid tutorial... ICBE... wahhaa.. went there... the teacher is like ok lor.. as usual... nothing much... haha.. o then went home!!! slept on the bus.. whaha.. so nice..

did the cats assignment lor... then while doing chatting with so many ppl.. sms also... o my god... first time so busy.. dunnoe y also..

wed.. ate lunch lor.. be4 i go off... then reach sch a bit late.. meeting time 12.30 i reach there 12.40 i think around there lor.. then kanna "scold"... haiz... dunnoe y also lor... after tt teacher say this one need.. i was like huh.. did not do... die.. so my frens and i faster rush it out lor.. :X

then a bit late for SW.. lucky i was not the lastest if not become the fitness leader... -_-" it is not an honour to be one i guess.. :X haha... to me la.. hu noes later i kanna dead.. :X today session was ok lor... but then i guess not my day lor.. the ball flying all abt.. sian... totally..

after tt was dinner.. in sch.. lolx... with my frens.. tok a bit la.. lolx.. then after tt went home lor... manage to finish a book on the bus.. finish as ina picture book with very few words... and then alight at the terminal... went to the library to return books.. lox.. and borrowed another one.. haha... interesting rite.. it is abt this golden ratio thingy... so jus rach lor.. whaha... nothing harmful lor.. haha

soat home slack a but.. watch tv etc... thennow be4 i sleep... blog.. but guess my net is gone.. so add the entry some time later lor...

btw.. did i blog on monday?? i forgot.. :X

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Nothing Productive.. :X

Sat woke up early in the morning... by my mother... for wad.. help her take things home.... of coz.. it comes with a price.. :X breakfast... lolx... how nice rite?? then went home... sleep again.. :X woke up and rush to sch for project at 2.. :X

i think the project is at least 4/5 done.. :X lolx.. hopefully things go well and wednesday is the DEADLINE... they dun call deadline for nothing... :)haha... anyway sat went home after the project tts like for 3-4 hrs??? around there... lolx.. but ok it was fun.. after all tt sidetracking etc...

went home... and all i rememberwas i slept.. :X lolx... i seriously dun remember wad else i did.. o.. btw.. going for jus one cats session is jus killing brain cells.. :X seriously... thinking of wad to crap.. at least i meet a module tt can kill me in crapping.. :X

then sunday... family gathering.. lolx... ya and play play and play.. i lose a lot of $$ too... ok serve me rite... i called for the game.. :X lolx... c la.. lolx.. but nvm... a game is a game.. but i did not make my jiang shan into ping di lor.. but to others it might already have become a keng... :X lolx..

haven seen them for quite some time really... lolx... everyone seems a bit distant.. :X but still after one day.. back to normal.. lolx... i guess... but yesterday was serious a day of relaxing... :X wahhaa... then suddenly struck me tt i have got a maths test on monday... so no choice study lor... slept a bit late.. :X

monday woke up off alarm... :X then sleep again... and suddenly woke up.. at 9... o man.. when lecture is at 10?? :X this is bad.. :X i rush so much... beg myh mum.. mummy.. can u fetch me to sch??? pls..... *teary eyes* and she said ok... to the mrt station... at least it is better than nothing rite?? :X lolx... so hop on the ride.. wahaha... then had a lecture on the car... o man... so idiotic... scolding me rich?? i'm not... saying one day u'll need to take a taxi to sch liao.. i'm like wadever.. jus say... coz i think it will come true tml.. coz i cannot be late for maths lessons... or i'll get barred ffor the module... no way i'll not let tt happen.. :X

o ok so went to sch.. had this explorers thingy.. i'm not involved.. :X thankfully.. but this coursemate of my.. so lucky... nvm.. dun tok too much abt it.. coz i'll never happen to me.. so its ok.. a change in the venue of the next lecture is parment.. so sian.. gotta eat.. then walk down hill up hill again.. o man.. it is crap.. :X skip tt... then wad tutorial obc.. and maths PRACTICAL.. ok nvm abt tt..

o had the test.. horrible.. expected bad results... :X ok nvm... dun tok abt it.. did the MOL mentally... coz i felt tt i've been wasting a lot of trees on smething stupid... :X then went home super fast watch tong xin yuan.. lolx... ok la.. stupid ending.. then watch tv from 7 to 10.. :X first time watch tv so long on a sch day.. :X i mean watch seriously... sit there.. watch!!...

ok gtg.. if not the taxi thing later come true i'l be dead.. crap.. it is 8am... -_-"

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I Decided That There Will Be No Title For This..

been going through lots of thinking.. and suddenly i did not tok as much as be4... :X seriously... did the dream jus mean something ok keeping ur profile low???

seriously it wasn't me hu wans the profile to be high... even my b day the lecture also noes... all thanx to my fren... how nice... nvm.. i felt tt i tok a lot softer these days.. most of the time la... unless need to tok loud... o btw.. is there really such thing called selective deafness?? i wonder.. or jus tt my voice "blend" into the environment too well?? :X

But seriously... sometimes maybe i have too low eq... can't communicate well with ppl... and of coz an irritant... somethings jus dun need to ask when u already noe wad's the ans... and also some things u dun evn need to ask as they are things to be known already... so i'm like left with nothing to tok to others execpt wad hw we have?? wad u doing later... wanna go out... these are the few questions i even ask.. tt are for real.. others are jus craps... and obviously it is craps and i get crap ans... self-entertainment?? i guess so...

and i hate it when i sms serious things and u give craps... u noe wad i mean?? like ask u to ask others and u jus straight reply they dun wan... and wad abt urself?? u wan or dun wan... the question was also intended for u... which jus happens to include others... nvm...

sometimes i jus can't stand it... when "jokes" went too far.. or rather i say.. the suanning went off track... when i ask a serious question and i get crap reply.. wad is this.. business means business.. and question mean question.. ans it the correct way... if it is suppose to be serious.. then give a serious ans... i dun wanna ans leh.. wad's tt u tell me... serious?? hello it is jus as good as not answering... dun tell me when i where u going later also gotta do with peer pressure in answering i dun wan to ans?? huh?? wad has tt gotta do with peer pressure or should i say suan?? i dun wanna say hu.. there is only one person tt always ans tt if u read u noe urself... tts y i think i'll not tok to u for some time... i noe it is childish... but hello... is tt how u treat a fren?? so wad if it is suppose to be a joke?? dun u noe wad's called limit??

sometimes i noe it is my fault... so can jus forget abt wad i say?? or should i say time will heal?? this deep scar is started by me.. and can i say not the first time?? ya seriously very sorry abt this... =S if u ever read this... i jus like to say sorry...

but u noe wad... i jus found out tt only a few ppl has my blog add.. lolx.. tts a good thing... so at least i m not so much restricted to wad i blog... :X not so public... to such an extend tt i cannot speak my mind... though some things jus cannot say in full.. at least half of it is present... :X

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