Cool Down

I need a place to vent anger...

so irritating... really hate last min plan things then last last min say cancel... WTH!!! next time jus count me out in planning ok... tell me date time place and wad is the activity.. if it fits my time i'll go if not forget it!

next... when u have a question and u are with ur frens... hu u ask first?? frens rite? and when u call and call... asked the questions a few times no reply.. ok i noe my voice is so irritating tt ppl jus choose to ignore.. so wadever.. i've been treated this way for another thousand more years to come... so u ask ur fren.. and u get scolded.. wad is this u tell me.. if not call frens.. might as well jus go on the street and get another other person then ask ur frens would u??

idiotic... last m i tt terrible as a fren??? i seriously dunnoe wad's this issue abt... loosing ur confidence?? or loosing trust in ppl?? i dunnoe seriously... i hate it when such issues come up... if i'm over-friendly means u are someone whom i open to with my heart ok... rather than u saw ur classmate and jus walk pass without a word?? or jus stick ur hand up... and u tell me tt's called classmate or in general close frens??? wel lets jus say wadever i do is wrong...

went to orchard.. meeting time 1.45 at lakeside.. i'm early.. ppl late... then wait at je again... late... suppose to reach there on time or a bit earlier in the end.. 30 minutes late.. wadever...

play pool... ya... as always my skills is bad.. nvm... but wad's more irritating is i jus in orchard for like 1 hr.. and i'm suppose to get back to settle some trival matter over the fax stuff... wad the heck... if travelling time is 15 minutes i dun mind.. but hello it is 1 hr back and 1 hr to orchard again.. and my mum still say i'm always like tt.. :@ it is more like hello i jus reach here abt 1 hr ago... and go back again and come back and go home again??? so iritating...

ate lunch at close to 7pm dinner at 8pm.. nice huh.. irregular meals.. anyway tml would be another day where i'll get ps again.. so wadever it is.. hu cares? i jus noe ihave got band tml evening.. and friday i got things on... sat and sun is booked... to stay at home.. be a good kid.. like i will...

so now is the fax thingy my problem??? when local can fax through and overseas cannot?? my fault ya... asking frens thing my fault too... say hi to frens also my fault... well... i think i haven get the kind of frens i always look for... i guess... if there are so many comments abt me... izit my fault??? or jus u guys have got a fixed thinking?? that every thing has a standard.. has a fixed composure tt u require... well... if tts the case.. nvm... lets jus say u are hmmm.. not my fren i guess... coz ppl i call frens are not tt inflexible!!!

always toking abt frens... are frens really tt impt?? if they are y m i not impt at all??? ya obvious... no looks.. no to everything... well... even if i suddenly disappear i think no one will noe.. o well... nvm...

lets jus say.. if one human is complicated... more than 6 billion humans are wad?? complex human structure?? or jus a irritating and complex structure for social relations?

ok time to cool down... above are not suppose to be tok abt... maybe i should restart again.. to the first few days when i step into np... well i guess so... no such stupid problems... i love my frens and i hate them too can i say so??? well... love and hate is jus a thin line across...

maybe jus say i haven meet the kind of crazy ppl i wanna meet... u c... or put it this way no one understands me... so live with it... it's been like tt ever since i was young...

let me rest for a few days... no problems with anything... i think my blog song is the best somg to relax.. if life is ever so carefree like the song i would live in it forever... come back to reality... it will never be so...

The Purity of Music