I Dunnoe
11:53 PM
everyone noes this is my favourite phrase... haiz... u noe... i wanted something i doubt i can even get it...
jus something so easy to get yet it is so difficult... u do the guessing then...
anyway so sian.. m i tt easy to pick on?? or izit i jus wanted the attention? i seriously dunnoe...
sometimes it jus made things so difficult for me... frens had problems... i have my own problems... but i cannot do anything to help a fren hu is so much more in need of support... i really felt very sad for her... but all i can do is to do stupid things to stop ppl from getting so emo.. and then i'm called the irritant.. nvm... but thinking of it... i cannot help but feel sad... how much pride it takes for a leo to cry u noe?? u dun... i dun like ppl around me to be always sad or unhappy... gotta think of something...
besides tt i drew up my own timetable... excluded NP band and i'm so freaking busy... haiz.... sometimes i really wished i joined other ccas too.... but again... i think if i had joined other ccas i would not meet a few impt ppl... blasted at some ppl un-wanted-ly... really gotta say sorry... but still i need to keep mysel fhappy...
m i so easy to pick on? i dunnoe really.. y m i always suan-ed? haiz... wadever it is... sometimes i jus busk in the attention given... it is like os un-wanted yet wanted? nvm...
i seriously hope this person noes wad i thinking... coz it seems like either the person noes and act dunnoe or the person noes act wrongly.. or the person noes but jus fail to understand?
i need a breather... i need a 1 mth break or 2 weeks break from anything tts happening around me... but it jus went on like tt... haiz...
i love to be myself yet sometimes i cannot be... coz i dunnoe wad's my real self?? the personality i portriat at home?? i seriously dunnoe...
haiz.. guess i'm tired.. i jus hoping... i get wad i wan... when u believe... haiz...
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