I'm Tired

Actually i have got lots of things to blog abt. but i jus cannot remember wad i was reflecting to myself just now.

I've sometimes really felt that after my 3 years of poly, now nearing the end, i've gained nothing much execpt tt dip (hopefully) other than tt wad have i got?

I wonder myself wad m i doing these days.

i think the song best describe my feelings now would be this. sorry tt it will be noisy. but really a song i'm listening to tt makes me really sad. so close... haiz.

I dunnoe m i destroying myself these days? or m i doing something stupid yet again? or m i such a dumb person to hold on to something that is suppose not worth?

ok let me save some tears... the song is.. nvm. unless u are in the situation if not u'll never understand how i'm feeling now! the sad-ness the loneliness the emptiness is unexplainable.

I'm sometimes getting tired of studying but i still need to study! i'm learning to be strong but i think i'm failing. or maybe i'm jus tired of this time is my life tt i wish my brain freezes so i can jus concentrate on studying. studying so hard that the other emo world is somewhere hidden not seen or heard. but u think it is possible? this Jasper is incapable of everything u can think of.

always making himself look so stupid. i dun wanna become tt super cold guy.

i should have exercised today. such a perfect day for it but i chose to sleep through the day? how dumb of me. see i'm dumb.

ok lets not continue this stupid entry. coz i dun see a point in writing all this stuff when it is only secondary. the primary source is leading to everything above. -.- But seriously i wonder hu reads this stupid person's entries. All the quiet ppl i guess

The Purity of Music