Karma??

Wad is a leader when one says i'm not the only one hu did something to someone. if it is a wrong thing and you as a leader did it. It just shows your ability.

Even my fren say that i should leave. From the way they act like others play wrongly need to giggle at. = not pro. Which i seriously think it is so!!! As if you are perfect.

Walking in and out like guest players? talk about yourself and your com. =D Acutally the attendence thingy is you created yourselves. Chase ppl out more la ORBI~~

Ok anyway Happy Birthday Alfred!! that was Sat. Hope you'll like the present. =D

Suddenly i felt so happy. =D Saturday have got nothing to do! so ask ppl out and also did project. so piss la but still ok at least some stuff done. =D

Gotta study already. haiz. tired. gotta sleep liao nitez

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Ok. Cool!

Hmmm, "you're hired" it's such powerful words.

ok been superly busy with my projects as usualtill i have no time to blog and really rest well until weekends. It has been like that ever since FYP started. It's gonna be worse next week. Time to plan my time-table! *drawing boards out*

Well days like being so busy has been a hugh impact on me. like when to exercise wad time to exercise also. This is lame ok but i know. Some pissing things do happen. But i learnt one thing. To control yourself and to think of the better side in a terrible situation. Really, and i can do it! yeah! Or rather I've did it! lolx.

Gotta train harder for tt silver. i need 5 pull ups which i have reach! Still a long way to that. And SBJ a staggering 222cm when i'm only 160+. It is like a 1.4 times my height! OMG! Pls let me pass with a silver!!

More quizzes and common test coming up and i'm already dying. Plus i'm gonna have super hectic months ahead! Help!! Ok call it i deserve it. But i'm really worried if i can cope! =S I've to plan the number of hrs for project number of hrs of sleep even. wad you think? =X i hope i can make it through. (I'm actually testing myself really)

Ok lesson's about to start. Cozso happen today i went out of hse and saw my neighbour. so took a lift! =D

My project's getting somewhere. A good start is already half done. My journey is still long!! =(

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Free!

Yes! I'm now free from all ccas! Free from all those crap! i have personal time now. as in like totally! (actually i've always been so since attachment started) Now's a time where there's no worry abt other stuff and watch others suffer. Well it is more like i don't even wanna be part of you guys.

You've already source out players so y still didn't get them down? but one more thing, it is a waste of time to go down so often. Look at who needs more practice? I'm really shocked at things like play this portion thingy and still get wrong. I'm no better but at least i can say if i had more practice it wouldn't be. Look at you? Ar! pathetic!

Plus what's a more valid reason that a reason of school work?? not everyone's like you who don't care. And the difference on doing well or not. i'm a bit ambitious bit at least i don't wanna fail myself. By aiming at only a pass. So much so for the FYP is not a valid reason.

O well... somethings that i found out about myself. I've been typing and sms-ing without the "..." at the back of every sentence while others are learning the "..."

I'm really sad. I've founded a place that doesn't want me and stuck there for god knows how many years. like 3? for what use? TIme wasted. the regret comes in and the bad feeling. (usual) I think i've always been in this situation where i'll regret what i embark on. And it failed or i lost interest or some great things happened.

I've got to pass my PFT! still got lots of room for improvement!

I really sometimes don't know what in that person that i cannot seems to get away from. What's that factor? Really what's that thing tt i cannot forget about? ARGH! hate it. And it is not going anywhere. There's this weird aura going around all the time.

I'm in a very transactional period where i feel very unstable. Somehow like a re-search of idenitity. Collating info. Replotting the next big move. And i'm all lonely. Friends are like distant animals when they see me. (i dunnoe y) What's in me that people fear? or is that because i'm too transparent? or they think they are not worth as a friend? HAIZ~!

My world re-building upon itself. In the midst of this big world there is this lonely guy that's still like a child yet not like a child. All alone looking at the world. Things he don't get he just sees them passing by.

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Too Busy Too Many Things To Write

very busy. actually have got a bit of time to write up here. but everytime open this page then got other things to do already. And gotta sleep early!! Haven't been exercising enough the past week. I see more fats now! Shit!

I was actually thinking of dye-ing my hair. But haiz. You noe money don't come easy these days. How leh? Gotta save up. How much can i save these days. haiz. Every month is negative! -.-

Now back to school work. Been super busy!! And PED is horrible (FYP) headache! Every week have a new headache. =S

Life's going too fast! I'm already not going for CCAs as often coz of FYP. Still there is the feeling of not enough time. (& money) The world is progressing very fast. The markets are always on constant change. We are also progressing like the world. And our mood is ever changing like the markets! =S

I'm still waiting thinking finding all the answers. I've spent too much time already. I think i should just forget it. Its about time to actually.

Tired actually been coming home at 4am the past 2 days. =X Its not good to stay out till so late actually. Not good for health. Makes you very tired. Cannot concentrate.

Sundays are days i slack at home. I haven't go shopping this weekend. Guess i need a weekly Shopping trip to destress. I need to exercise more to burn for all the excess fats! which don't seems to be going away!!! like wad the hell.

I'm scared of my future! Really. I don't have the courage to face it. Future as in after poly! =( Actually, I'm more afraid of loosing so many things i have now. Those little hopes, those younger days and those who are with me. I really thought i wasted my time. On useless stuff. I should deserve more than this! I really think so. =(

My life's a mess. Dun disturb. I'm all alone la. The lonely me.

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I Dunnoe Wad To Say

seriously, sometimes i'm too tired and stress to type out everything. :X there are lots of things to take no. lot of things to remember and lots of things to restrict. Can i for once not do any of those? Just be myself for a day. no stress no worries.

My face's getting worse. And haiz. i found out tt i'm blocked yes. But still there are lots of signs to show something else. WTH! I'm tired of this all Tired of this world too. i Which i could have a total rest day. Or rather 10 days and everyday i just do wad i wan and things just go how i want them to be. and after the 10 days i'm back to doing lots of stuff!

Pent up emo-ness.

I'm still seeking out the truth. I kind of hated weekends. like sometimes i'm the only one without any prog while all my frens are out!! :(

My Lord-of-the-Ring! Argh. I need to destress. Swimming or sun tanning or just simply go shopping! i dun wanna feel like i have nothing to do coz my brains is fully thinking abt the amount of stress i'm having now! PED, Report, School Work!!! ARGH. Shake them all off!

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