My Frens

Sometimes i dunnoe how will things be like. Always when i move on in life, i feel very very down. And i'll fall into a depression for sometime maybe even breakdown on another. Lets jus say he's weak.. eating a proper meal a day, close myself from the world (a feeling) and of coz thinking how great was the times we all had be4.

this time round to end the poly phase of my life, we went on a cruise. though it is like nth much to do. but i'm always contented with my fren around and we do sth together. i guess i'm always tt lonely person hu needs good company.

I think to my frens i'm always tt super AA guy, super loud, super lady-like some cases auntified. But guess no one really noes me i guess. make it tt i'm the simple yet complicated person. Always acting stupid, always pissing ppl off. the guy tt has nothing to talk, seems tt i'm keeping a distance from them. the person whom everyone will be like can u just shut up. maybe i'm still super childish and native. drama-mama sometimes. tt person with 101 ways to irritate ppl.

A test of this bond would always be after a phase of life tt u met these ppl. hu are the ppl hu can stand u talking nonsense most of the time. hu are the ppl tt will still contact u talk to u, keep u updated of their lives. ppl come and go. And till now i wouldn't wanna say how many ppl treasure such a fren.

i guess i'm again tt lonely guy yet again. sometimes something u must get a chance. but many things on the other hand occupy ur thoughts. wad are they pride, profitability, best possible outcome, thinking of so many things that they forgot humans are alive not dead. everyone has their own thoughts own wants. sometimes so happen many ppl's path dun cross.

Maybe i think far too much. but i'm still tt lonely guy after 20 years of living. the emptiness tt only good company can provide! u can dun say anything when u're out with this company, jus walk and dun talk eat and talk a bit of nonsense. it is jus the company not the activity. and when u have the company the activity is impt to make them gd company? i think talking and doing no sense stuff is the best.

i love all my frens some love more. but will these loves be returned? i wonder.

i think i should have taken more pictures. miss the chance again. but still got a group photo. now, it is time to close up for a while i guess. hu will read this i dunnoe. but there is something i really wanna tell someone. and another thing i really wanna talk about to someone. but i guess i should jus keep them to heart again. hide in tt corner, trying to understand, to find and to observe.

i need some rest.

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