Happy New Year!

I've got my new year resolutions out. but then might still have things to work out on like some details. lolx.

as for 2007 resolutions. half of it not fulfilled or hmmm rather difficult to. nvm.

Had lots of fun jus now!!! lolx. I can never imagine! Thanx to all those hu made it possible!! but now look at the hole in my pocket! this is bad.

Still the question carries on since few years back. I think I'll really need to sort out my thoughts. Dream job. haiz. Y M I in this course? i also dunnoe.

Time to start writing all the sweet & bitter things that happened throughout my poly life. Yes. One day we'll walk our separate ways but when we walk down our new paths, the old remain a trail for us to back track on the things we have done. Good or bad! Happy or sad! Right or wrong! Everyone's experience is unique no other person has the same experience but there are moments that we share the same thoughts. I hope this coming year, when everyone goes on their paths, we'll all still be like before. =)

I've to find a time to really talk about myself. Or sometimes i think need to understand myself more be4 anything else. But in this huge mad rush! i need to squeeze out time alone.

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Happy New Year!

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still missing. haiz. In a disappearing act!

Now it's time to start stressing! When is this project and tt project gonna be done?

ARGH! Hate IT!

How come ppl start the questioning again. OMG. some will noe some won't at all. =D

Tired of having to be living in this world! Time to party! Enjoy while you can!

I need to look into wad i wan again. there are lots of issue to look into! my dream job someone jus triggered tt.

I wish.

I need to take time out to look into my new new year's resolution. and wad have i done the past year. haiz.

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Merry Christmas

OMG it was so boring the countdown there. but still well it was such an easy job. =D

Tired these days jus feel like shutting from the world totally! no projects no other additional problems jus pure fun!!! I think i need to destress. Too stressed up already. =(

Something's missing for the past 3 weeks!!! My life's so boring now. Nothing much interesting.

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Tired

Yes I'm very tired of everything.

Wed went to sentosa first time with classmates. ok la. ppl say i got good body shape but i think it is in a bad shape leh. dunnoe y they say tt also. haiz. sad.

Wed be4 going sentosa also went for a long run. after so long. ache like hell la. lolx. after sentosa went to ya usual stuff. then so surprise to be visited. then went to club a while. cool! Play really hard!! =D

Thursday was another day of project. went to suntec to do. i delayed quite a long time coz have to accompany my dad at home a little longer. did project and went to BT for dinner. only the 4 of us coz sister went to Japan already! so good!

Friday damn powerful. i went to sch for WISP! yes and i need to do my WISP also shit! so many things to do! Then met up with my PED grp. i excuse myself to write cards and sent a few of them already. some i think might receive after christmas! totally SHIT! Then was the H2 Bomb! O.o ya and after the bomb was a hugh sea!~ -.- went to NUS coz of some good fren! lolx. ok la NUS quite nice not as big as i thought :X and evening usual! and quite moodless la. started with lots of naggings! sian lor. then it gets better after that. maybe i'm jus tired.

sat was a day at home. did run. and the winter solicte or something like tt. :X then rot at home like i say tired so rest lor. then evening went out yupz~! then home at 11 from 5 include abt 2 hrs of transportation = out for 4 hrs only. ya and i also very happy!

Still got a lot of things not done. the computer need to crack, another need to reformat, WISP, EF, ICP tutorials, PED and ICP projects! ARGH! stress. need to destress!

I'm really blur very very blur! Wad's that msg that is trying to be put across? If it is negative y are actions positive? pls explain!

In a disappearing act. Sometimes i'm jus tired. i really need lots of rest!! I wanna have lot of money so i can adore myself well. look good. that's all i'm asking for! but I need lots of time to shape up myself, and pass tt stupid PT with a silver next month!

Have to put my my new year resolution already. i think this year's resolution seems like none is fulfilled! another SHIT!

haiz gotta PS my frens on 24th like no choice! :(

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Happy

So nice! Had lots of fun! Thanx guys and gals too. lolx.

O well I'm not a handsome guy i guess. wad do i need to do? haiz. makes me depress.

But still got sch later. =S sianz.

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Troubled

I'm really confused. Really troubled. And very irritable now! Dun come disturb me with crap stuff and read my body language pls! (Not that i can help)

I'm really sad in a way. I haven't got the chance to really talk to you. And talking to you is all i wanted now.

-Sometimes i hate this human to human interaction. But sometimes i love it. Well when you've got ppl hu do things in a super mess. Or jus we cannot get to adapt to your style-

I'm left all alone here. Tired, sad and hope-given-up. I need my new wish new hope.

Thought this year will end differently from last but... in the end it's still the same! =(

I wan frens hu i can trust, hu's as outgoing as i m, as playful and bitchy as i m and of coz the 'click'. I'll never be able to find many, but at least i wan to have ppl hu i can go out with and feel comfortable talking crap.

nan ren bu huai nu ren bu ai. Wad a phrase!

Labels: Confused, Sad, Serious, Tired, Troubled

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Sad

A Sadness that no single soul can save me from.

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Dunnoe Wad To Blog

You know you're in a race. A personal race and suddenly you feel like giving up. Giving up on yourself not for others.

Did the test today. like woke up at 11am jus to find that i've got 2 hrs to the test and in tt 2 hrs you have to: bathe, wear clothes, style hair, shut computer, eat lunch and travel to sch. so i did everything. left home only at 12.10. coz 12 eat lunch then suddenly look at time OMG. pack my lunch out anyway have to eat a light lunch also. on the way study and study. first time i really feel like crying!!! coz i haven been faithfully studying fr the past 4 days. So 1 hr be4 the paper was trying to squeeze everything in! really very stress!

O well chat so much and ya somethings are hard to come by really i'll blog again abt wad happened today tired.

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-.-

Happy yet sad. you dun understand really.

At least someone made my day. =D

Haiz. I'm so confused too. I need to save lots of money!!!

I've a list of things to buy. How? and i have got no money. start saving up.

If you wanna contriute to the list do tell me and i'll tell you the list.

Today's a super slack day. I'm out the whole day doing every other thing possible than studying when i have got a major test tml! How is this possible? (I'm wondering if i'll even do well)

I've to sleep early. Nitez. My face is corroding already. I need to do something.

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Jasper

You're not talented not smart not hardworking. So wad are you? Can I get out of this race? I can't take it any more.

left brainer ppl are ppl hu makes the perfect more perfect. Right Brainer ppl are ppl hu make the imperfect perfect.

Haiz. Ok i not i'm very emo now. My frens dun believe that i'm so. Ok tml's school and you've gotta face someone. And more imptly, wad will ppl say abt me again. I'm so sensitive. SHIT! Can i for once be not?

I just dun understand some things some ppl do. It just keeps me wondering. haiz.

ok time to sleep la tml got sch.

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No One Will Understand.

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Name: Jasper
Date: 12/9/2007
Colorgenics Number: 76235401


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You are setting yourself an illusory goal. Whatever it was that has made you so bitterly disappointed has left a nasty taste in your mouth and you feel that 'enough is enough'. You are sick of it all. Wouldn't it just be wonderful if you could retire to a desert island and turn your back on the past? But it's an illusion and you know it.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influenceand there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

You refuse to relax or to give in and you are endeavouring to keep exhaustion and depression at bay by keeping active. You are experiencing a relationship or a situation which is not satisfactory but you feel powerless to change it. You have that 'need to be needed' but you do little to achieve the sense of belonging that you need. You try to disguise your feelings of insecurity and so you continue to resist this state of affairs - and as a consequence you are experiencing tension and stress. Your depression makes you irritable and impatient. You have that urge to get away from the situation, either actually or mentally. You are finding it increasingly difficult to concentrate.

Anxiety and a restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled physical or emotional needs are producing considerable stress. You react to this by blaming everyone but yourself. You are aggressive, sarcastic and embittered. Try to be understanding and a little flexible - it will pay dividends in the long run. and it could well be that accordingly all of your dreams could soon be realised.

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Block Again?

Jasper O Jasper. Wad have you done this time?

O well some random stuff. When will i have the chance to do something i wan to? I dun even get one wad's the reason?

O well went for a wedding dinner jus now. The bride is really beautiful and the groom is handsome, wad a perfect couple. lolx. Bless them.

O well, i really think i should have a detoxic day! this is really bad you noe.

I dunnoe wad the day be4 you were darn happy. but the next day you are not so happy? like haiz. it is totally different. so in the endi think it still lies on the average line which is pessmistic.

I think i should change myself for once! change in a way i should be better than wad i m now. treasure myself more value myself more! Coz only when you do that you are hu you are. I'll reconsider all my possible ways of valuing and treasuring yourself.

I need more change more changes in my life, I need them instaneous. I wanna have frens hu i can really depend on. have fun with. Some ppl suggest that you should get a partner. but i was thinking getting a partner is really bad. but the good thing is you'll have the commitment to keep the person company. whereas a fren is like they have their own prog and all and you have to keep in touch and hu noes everyone is everywhere. coz they have got different commitments. haiz. tell me wad i need?

Haiz. seriously i jus wanna tell you somethings. somethings you need to know and. nvm. you'll not understand at all. Maybe you need more time? or maybe you jus wanna avoid at all cost?

O well back to myself. I think I should start studying harder do better and also have a good time alone in the very blurry situation. Can that happen? I think you'll see a super moody and emo Jasper. Plus he'll have lots of mood swings. =S

I need to exercise more! it's not working. and i need to really detoxic my body. it seems really poisoned with lots of stuff. =S May you be bless with good health!

O well, something i wanna say on Sat but nevermind. No one listens to me also. And i'm always alone. Tired so i shall sleep.

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Enchanted

Its a great movie. Really but it sets me really thinking.

How do i live without you I want to know~~ Yes that is something i really want to know myself.

I'm such a broken person. I kind of starting to hate myself my life my everything! My fren say i need to repackage myself! YES I AGREE! But how to? I need to change a lot of things. First things first outlook my clothes i need a new set complete with shoes and bag and Hair! Next, Personality. I'll achieve these in a month's time possible?? I dream a day when i just overnite i become wad i wan to be. lolx. FatHope.

Horoscope says that tml is a good time for something yet i think again i might reconsider. :X if possible i really hope to have the chance to talk.

I really think i should venture into some unknown regions. Places i haven'y gone before. Things i haven't do before. I better start planning! I need wad i need.

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=)

lolx. aiya a bit sian. days are so difficult to pass. but some days are fun. or rather most days in school. but sat and sun. it's just so boring when you ahve go no money and no frens. you are nothing. so wad should you do with the free time? do a bit of studying and also must learn how to earn cash! when you need it so much. :X

ok la sometimes i really love you so much. but you noe abt it? i dunnoe. you noe that i like you so? i need to learn to draw that line. the line that puts my world in right order.

Listen to sometimes when we touch by Ron steward. i think. The song is really meaningful to me. and ya it is really something to listen again and again. though i dun have the song in my com. it plays in my head.

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