Day Out

At last have time to go out shop with parents but you know what? i still haven get a chance to ask about increment of my allowance!!!

Ya, quite a sad day actually. cause i felt so helpless over the issue. I cannot help in any way. Or i'm useless in every way. haiz. =( all i can only do is to send stupid msges dunnoe if they will be read. How stupid of me. But that is the only thing i could do. Or am i making things worse.

Anyway came home in the evening with stomach full of lunch and dinner. i still haven't eat my raw oysters! SluPPpZ~! One day soon. Then rush my HW. OMG only HW took 3 hrs plus? i haven study!!! that's WTH rite? when wed is test. No mood of more test also. Someone's so depress.

Why am i so affected by that?

After a day out, i found a lot of things i need to buy! YES! NEED! Now i'm down cause other is down. Why am i so weak? Am i weak? Weak in my emotional control? i guess

tml's i'm so gonna be scolded again. cause my log is very long! SHIT! i think too much crap inside.

too much said i think i add one more, tell me what i can do?

anyway yesterday went for b day party. cool. somethings are so funny la. and i drank quite a bit. as usual. everyone's blaming their alcohol for their "wrong doings" OMG. thanx jamie! cool b day party. =D not a lot of ppl but i think it is good enough. =)

O well yesterday woke up early to go ICA get a stamp on my passport. then went home a while later out to school for practice. then home again then go fren's b day party nearby. then home again. O well. I'm so home bounded these days. i felt so too. partly cause i have no mood to stay out also. i think i just need some company. will you?

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PMS?

Maybe i have that. Today's mood is bad. Really. It got from bad to worse. I don't know what you are doing really. I'm also not sure why I'm like that today. PMS ba. i think it was a month ago that i had this. =X Yawn~! Practical was ok.

Anyway morning i went for a run. Maybe cause of the run then i feel very tired? maybe. Today's the first time I look over and like hate it then turn away. First time! this is apparently for no reason.

I did something quite stupid today though. using that walkie talkie. wahaha. i think everyone heard. opps. lolx.

ok la today is swinging. Shit. Why like that? i don't know too. someone say i fa xiao jie pe qi. Aiya. Whatever it is i need a hair cut i need loads of money to adore myself yet again.

I just found out i always buy shirt for myself these days and they don;t even increase my allowance like WTH. and when i ask for money give me some stupid face! ARGH!

I'm not eating fried rice tml!

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Sunday

Tml is back to training. Y are your personal msges related to wad i say? -.-

ok one day of home stay to do wad? my log and tutorial. ONE DAY! wad the hell. i haven study also! tts the worse thing.

Wad to eat tml? i think tml then i'll think. I'll try to wake up early check if someone is awake early too.

Someone no mood y? i dunnoe. dun ask much ba. Just stay happy lor.

i wish and hope but i dunnoe if it'll be true. sadness & loneliness lies beneath all happiness.

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CPTC

Horrible place so like strict? i'm not in sec sch alrite! ok it is even worse than sec sch! OMG.

a bit happy a bit sad mixed feelings. Some ppl dun have to be present tml. And obviously they will not be around. YAWNz~ i gotta sleep already.

First, i think it i monday blues that is why i'm feeling so down. Second, I felt that i'm a bit out of place today. Somehow. SHIT! I hate that feeling. Third, I felt as though i'm being condemned.

Anyway today's one day I couldn't bring my mood up. =( went for a run jus now. quite bad. though there are somethings to be thinkin about. But i'm still wondering. Thanx someone for the chat. And another a bon voyage!

Nitez, Tml's gonna be worse? I hope not.

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NDP

Ok. NDP so Happy 42nd Birthday Singapore! 42nd right? =X Acutally, I haven had the Singapore B Day fever at all? why is it so? Even yesterday, i haven't really recalled that it is Singapore's Birthday. But surprisingly i wore red. Unknowingly though.

Day was alright things seems ok. Sup not around, sad. After work went to eat at holland V. When my dept went to some hotel for dinner. OMG. their's was freaking expensive! cannot afford. lolx!

Anyway, i haven't had a proper sleep last night. First, after i bathe and dry my hair to sleep.20 minutes later sister call me up. And i was like wth... to kill that thing. but in the end it disappeared somewhere, so i happily went to sleep. 40 minutes later she call me up again. This time was WTF! That thing was lying there and call me to kill! can't she just do it herself~ so just hand go down.. Wait with a tissue of course! I washed my hands and went to sleep! 7 plus am mum called me up! help me lock the gates! ARGH! sat there chit chat with her a while before she left. so went to sleep again. After 40 minutes i think called againhelp her take her thing! OMG! WHY is everyone calling me! so after that i happily slept another 3 long hours.

woke up start doing things and was like its national day. List a few need-to-dos like name e.g. hair cut! There are many things i want to do but i have got no time! =(

I'm really sad that i did not learn how to play a piano, did not learn how to skate, did not exercise enough, did not faster finish my report. I'm sad and i think there is no one who will be able to help me. =(

All my efforts are in vein? searching for that one is so difficult. I'll fall back sit behind and stay quiet for some time. It has already began for some time already. Maybe a month plus? O well... I really feel like going clubbing now! out of the world of sadness for once and maybe shake to the music drink a bit more than normal and O i'm out of this pathetic Earth. But in reality, i'm still having my 2 big fat foot on this very Earth that i want to get out of.

Who's there to hold me at this time? ARGH! too much said. There's lots of work tomorrow!

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ICP

the whole day there! ARGH! I'm so gonna kill myself. Almost though. Alone there so so bored so lonely, no one to talk to, no one to joke around. Was freaking moody and then stress!!! Luckily, it is like that one! PHEW~! thought i did something wrong. Anyway, i've applied all that i've learnt the past few weeks on today! OMG~!~! I can't believe it myself too. But it is so~ Thanx to someone! That someone who taught me and that someone who did not come cause sick. Hope that someone is feeling ok! But seriously got to thank that someone for teaching me so much~

O well, i'm kind of sad these days.. really sad. somehow just felt that way. It is said that the person who goes around and spread love needs more love himself. So is that true?


-Reporting-

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